simulation

is it alright to draw less
and take up a humbling role
when the spark inside of u screams no
its a traffic jam in the mind these days
endless wakefulness in the night
dreaming in daylight
between the lines covered by
the greyness of the shadows

it feels like drowning in ice water
unseen pressure which stings in the chest
every breath deeper
every sigh heavier
in love,
in pain;
all over again.

life wasn't meant to be like this was it
the decisions we make and actions we take
do they not seem to matter in the end
well to me at least.

It's all an irony, this thing called Life
keeping up false appearances,
false behaviour
false smiles, laughter and demeanour
why do we even follow The System knowing it all.

Adam was a failure. and so was Eve.
after gaining the knowledge of good and evil
it appears that their descendants
did not benefit from it