empty

just got back from another signature clubbing session with my colleagues
somehow the feeling is always the same
that same feeling of euphoria with the alcohol flowing through your blood
that same feeling of release the loud music provides
that same feeling of security of bathing in the darkness
that same feeling of longing for that one girl whom you might have
a chance with meeting
that same feeling of light-headedness when you've had too much to drink
the feeling of disappointment when you realise that the girl who catches your eye
is lesbian

that same feeling of emptiness when it's all over.

the value of joy has lost its meaning
the value of passion has lost its charm

somehow i'm feeling happy, yet a sense of loss
that choking feeling of emptiness within my soul.
I have a God.
I have a Life.
what am i missing actually?

on a side, i feel like killing the idiot who agreed to buy my md player. re-asking me questions on whether it can record, does it have cable etc when i've actually stated cleary on the web auction.and arguing over the meeting place. this is one of the reasons i'll never venture into the area of "Business". you just have to take so much shit for a pathetic 30 dollars.

so much effort for so little value for money

the law of idiocracy exists for some good reason
so does
the law of conservation

saddy

the fish tank is gone.



all that remains is just an empty space
wherein lie the ps2 and tv set
I lived my life in darkness
Never the sun on my face
It didn't seem so sad, though
I figured that was my place
until I was bathed in light
everything just didn't seem right

before the day the passion died
before the day my emotions lied
How else could it be
Anyone would notice me?
It's magic, I can tell
How she set me free
Brought me out so easily

and so where do i go from here
this overwhelming lifespring of emptiness
I saw a world enchanted
and all i did was take it for granted
the spirits in my room
little balls of light
charming me to retain their sight

but it had to go
the passion has died
holding on would give Pain its pride

You made me believe
but all that remains now
but at least i know now
that i'm not truly

dead