apathy

life's still the same even though i've slightly more then 2 months left before it finally returns to normal and, although the dc visit episode has blown over, i'm still left with traces of shit of the event. work is endless they say and results ALWAYS (if not,) often unappreciated.

a colleague of mine kinda lost it today when a comment was made that he should do this and that when it was actually not under his purview. in fact, he had already taken the extra mile to help the bitching party by getting a certain task done for them. See, unappreciated. another colleague of mine was given the shit job of sourcing for potential speakers for an event; sad to say or rather, i was kinda appalled when he told me that the people he called were so fucking slack that they gave him professional remarks like "who gave you my number? ", "actually i don't like to give such talks but since we are a health organisation i am obligated to " and the likes. professionalism at it's finest i guess. makes me wonder how much work is really done in the office these days.

apathy. it's in our blood.

no matter how prim and proper you try to be, the majority of everyone else won't really give a shit, appreciate, or even care to notice that you're doing the right thing and if you're lucky, they'll even give those misfits who fail to follow the "system" a candy bar or two; sometimes with a cherry on top.


so this is how it feels
reaching for heaven
kissing the sky
tasting bitterness all around
for a lifetime on high
so this is what it is
lying forever
in the water of a pretty pool
filled with human stools