stressed ?

the area/muscle/tissue under my right eye has been twitching for 2 days already
some superstitious people i've spoken to say it's good luck; some say it's bad luck when i think i may well be dying soon
i checked it up from a website saying its a neurological condition called blepharospasm . OMG my brain is spoilt. Another website said it was stress .
me? stress?
ok lar other than :

1) dragging myself out of the house waking up daily at 7am to get to the office
2) making sure i've got my ass covered in office and staying out of "trouble"
3) wanting to complete ffx-2 by next week (i've only covered 20 hrs of the game so far)
4) wanting to complete the set of C.S Lewis Books which my friend has given me
5) having to convince myself to get my personal website up and running (haven't even reg for the domain yet)
6) having to force myself to learn PHP/PERL for fun laughter peace and joy
7) having to redo the PNS website for PNS (again)
8) constantly finding out what is wrong with me


i am not stressed.

things which i don't understand

i can never understand why this world is so messed up
about why everyone's blood is of the same colour
but yet their minds vary
why the pretty girls are doing with the ugly guys
and that bad things happen to good people.
why do complete pricks get the best of everything
while the humble and good ones wallow in shit
why bosses are always so fucked up
and that people can be so immature at times
on why people only come to me for help
and when i am in my hour of need everyone's dead
its hard lying to myself
that there are others worse off than me
to be contented with the pretty girls + ugly guys system
and the bastard having it everything system
and continuing to help the poor and needy
to be always there when friends call for me
and yes i don't understand
why there are so many poor and destitute people out there
when they should have been given a better life instead of starting off as being pitiful
the mainstream
it's always something which i've always hated
people may say this to me after reading this entry
"what's life without challenges"
you're put in such a situation for character building
to make u you a stronger person

my only answer is

it is life without you

change

the sky has lost its colour
the sun has turned ash grey
but at least i feel serenity
admist the blackened sky

there's a voice in my mind
some things were never meant to be
i've been hearing it over and over again
endearing memories of yesterday
there's a dream to be fulfilled
can never be remembered
but whatever surrounds me now
if i did not love thee
are but oceanic voices.