realise

there's no point
in bitching about the shit in life knowing that it will never fail to come your way
there's no point
in being pissed with the world knowing that there'll always be people around to piss you off.
there's no point
in always being nice knowing that there'll always be people who exploit your kindness.
there's no point in dying
knowing that you would have lost the batte.

it is easy to die.
it is harder living up to the challenges of this life

maybe i've come to realise
to once again leave it to Providence to govern my daily life

Crucify my love
If my love is blind
Crucify my faith
If it hinders me
if i'll never know, never trust
That one day my
world would be in colour
Crucify my love
If it should be that way

wrath

recently theres been a spate of incidents which left me none the happier
but instead full of anger. sometimes i really wonder why there'll still be people around to piss you off even though when you're nice to everyone. could this be the rule of conservation? equivilent trade? nature's divine balance? if it is...shouldn't i be pissing others off as well? or would that upset the balance. if so, someone innocent would definelty be screwed as well. i hope it didn't take me 21 years to realise that fairness does not govern life and death in this world. if not all the good people would have died old (imagine such a heaven, where all the bad hats died young!)

some shit should await me in office if i'm not wrong. i'll find out in an hour's time