leaving

i just got back from a gathering celebrating my bday and 2 other's at brewerkz. met up with my suppossedly "best friend" in secondary school over there. its ironic that we give our friends titles like "best friend" or "best bud" only to realise that once time has passed, they are your "best" anymore. but then again meeting up with him was gd cos at least we still have shit to talk about so hurray, no weird silence. but then again, i was enjoying their company so much that the thought of not being able to meet them as easily as i can now when i'm in oz was enough to make me feel sian.
i'll be leaving in a day's time and i'm starting to feel the emo-ness of it all. i can see from my mum's eyes that she's kinda sad. which makes me feel sad too. but i know i have to do this; and i can only hope that she will understand and not be sad. looking at all the well-wishes from my relatives written on cards, i think i better not fuck up there.

sigh

23

yay i have hit level 23. total time played : 0318 hrs 00 min!
so exciting. its so ironic that we all look forward to birthdays but when the birthdays are really here we begin to whine about being old and shit. no exception for me though. i've stopped celebrating my birthdays since the age of 21 (but i still look forward to them) mainly because i've probably "grown up?" it's like the attitude of "oh alright it's my birthday...yay let me be happy today and tomorrow everything will be normal again" kinda sad..but then again, who ever throws a birthday celebration for himself? it's your friends that do it for you (not hinting here, but think about...makes lots of sense)

anyway i just got back from a long overdue meet up session with 2 of my poly classmates. it's kinda funny how we haven't seen each other for like 2 years (cos of ns) and then suddenly i log on to friendster and see a message from one of my them saying "eh got msn anot?" and it was dated dec 2005. wtf~! seems that i seldom check friendster....and then after that we suddenly agree to "meet up and see each other". It was damn fast and super effective lead time was like..1 day? wow. fastest friends award goes to them : chris & weirong. we had dinner at this place called "manhatten something"(a chip of fish and co) at PS. Food was alright except they said fish & co was better. (to me everything's ok cos i eat to live and not the other round). watched "fun with dick & jane" and later has this talk cock session at starbucks.

i had to leave to meet 2 of my ns buddies at holland v. more caffeine and Häagen-Dazs ice cream ensues b4 meeting another of my uber friends. she baked a cheesecake for me leh waaaah so touched! thx gal.

oh well. i'm feeling weirdly weird right now maybe...tho its my birthday tdy, the fact that i'll be leaving my friends and family for Oz on sun makes me kinda sad? and the fact of the hard ass process of finding permanent accomadation and making new friends just makes me want to ARGHHHhhhhH.

because eventually , everything is emotional.
sigh