losing myself

i can't help but think these days
sleepless nights in endless dreams
of what the world is and was to be
black and white makes it all grey
and the greyer it gets it fades away
looking all around me theres joy
yet sadness seems to be following behind
pieces of cyberspace bits of bytes
they all seem to have a relation
but what?
sometimes i wonder why am i here
the mere existence seems like a joke

what is the true nature of life
and what has it got to do with me