hope springs eternal

for the past 48 hours i've been viewing a Smogesbord of movies
happy holidays indeed
i need my eye-mo

hah i stumbled upon a poem by alexander pope
looks like i'm not the only cynic here

hope springs eternal in the human breast
man never is but always to be blest:
the soul, uneasy and confin'd from home
rests and expatiates in a life to come


no idea what that meant?
basically it means
life's a bitch until you die

a.d 2k

the past just crept up at this life of mine
will we be able to go back to the beginning
of time?

hindsight

in hindsight, my hamster orded 2 days ago
in hindsight, i've spent about 20 months
in the national service
in hindsight, i regretted not trusting my judgement
in hindsight, i've cried many times
not forgetting
in hindsight , i've stabbed many others too

a good friend of mine Qimou just collected his pink ic today.
i felt happy for him
and a sense of loss for myself
i no longer have a buddy to go on
"special operations" with anymore
not forgetting the ever adreanline-pumping
"oceans 3" and the many situations of "recovery" when some shit happened to us
he really made my ns stint a less boring one.
and now i'll spend 6 lonely months
maybe i should follow my colleague and eat 2 dou sar paus a day
since there're not many heppenning kids to go out with anymore

i hate to lie
though i can't speak the truth
for truth be told
and alliances formed
to dust the kingdom will become
along with it
its laws

i need to ord soon