gaseous

filled with frustration
vexed with anticipation
silently sit
quietly weep

freedom is hope
hope is comforting
seldom real
always disappointing

emanating despair
i solomnly contemplate
the direness of my lonely fate

emancipate my heart
balm my mind
let me not hear my own requiem

pacify my being
placate my soul
save me from the fire filled hole

nothing is for free
life's a journey
unlock the mysteries
i haven't realised

so that i'll be gaseous

and fit right in

quandary

life doesn't always go the way we want it
it never does for me
i have a final year project (FYP) outline to submit by next friday
the only problem is that i haven't settled on a project to take up as my FYP
it's , according to my supervisor either
too simple
or too hard
what then is just right.
i guess i'll never have a bright idea after being put down so many times
its hard enough to bite on my lip and taste the dirt
but as nature's built in device
anger will seep in sooner or later.
right now i have a long list of possible fyps...
only so little time to choose

it's hard living a life that's nice and beautiful
happiness is just a facade right here

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Moderate
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Moderate
Histrionic:	Moderate
Narcissistic:	Low
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
-- Take The test And Bare Your Soul --