hands of time

it's been a while since i last had such a night
alone in the study, lights out with the iridescent glow of pixels on my skin
after being back for 4 weeks it is only at this moment where that sense of familiarity returns to me
somehow so much has changed over the span of 10 months that it's really hard to swallow it all
people change i guess, moral values, opinions and lifestyles
and sometimes holding on to the past doesn't seem to aid in anything at all
i can't help but be sad.
tirisfal cries for me.

on a lighter note 2008 has started off pretty well; i hope it stays that way although looking back, i seriously do not feel that i have grown. i should be worrying indeed. i guess it's a motivation issue after all. it's depressing really with only 10 days left.

once upon a time
i had half the mind
to ease their miseries
until that day i died
i have always tried
to stand on the bright side
i can see now
why people eat and die alone
living souls which
were never whole
it's all about lifestream.