all alone now

simple phonecall in twilight hour
few words spoken, much meaning achieved
early departure, happy for friend
disdain on other hand
loneliness is creeping up on me
this night, this hour
this era of uncertainty
please can anyone hear me
reply if you do
such joyful times we all enjoyed
less joyful ones too we all embroiled
i will continue learning
even after the teacher is dead
somehow

what's next

and so the story goes; you've probably heard that NS will be cut shorter to 2 yrs for kids who enlist in dec 2004 and existing kids will serve 2 yr 2 mths for fit people and 2 yr 4 mths for handicapped people and the likes. like every other NSF i am SOOooo elated. sense the sacarsm and happiness please. anyways the week was a pretty messed up one i can't really recall what i did all i knew was that tdy (or rather yesterday) was my supervisor's bday. went out with most of my dept's people to have lunch at COCA. i've run out of things to type already. life has just gotten to the max of mundaneness. now i know how my predecessor the cai tao king felt.....

tdy is friday. at least one mroe week is coming to an end though

the irony of living

so this is it, i've just lived though one more week
it's one less week to the 532 days till freedom
but at the end of the day i'm still unable to give myself an answer as to what i've achieved.
day by day i just live life as it is. but what's the point when there's nothing to be achieved. i've taken to task many things in order to make my day's worth. but still they are unable to fulfill my need for self achievement.

it just dawned on me : there are currently no girls in my life.

maybe it's time i settled down