the very one word i hate

a person, an entity , an object
best ally, worst enemy ; the subject
relationships forged, relativity broken
words of kindness often spoken

he backs you up ,pulls you down
makes and breaks your very soul

sometimes i wonder why he exists
no man is an island
neither is he an archipelago
the world is made up of islands
so why the phrase

many a time i have been struck down
many a time my face is frowned
but never a time have i been the clown
the clown of a trusted friend.

why does avarice rule the world
why does lust rule over love
why do thousands suffer
while the very trival
wade in luxury

good vs evil
love vs hate
morality vs immorality

why do such thigns exist

the very word which disappoints me time and again

friend. i hate that word

a blinding truth

it's my last day of work tomorrow
somehow i feel a sense of loss
not because i lost my holidays to stinking VTP (vacation training prog)
not because i lost precious time which could be used for other things
but the loss of belonging
being at NIE was a blessing
with a neat environment and neat people
it was totally l33t.
to have such a working place for attachment
was definetly a miracle in messed up singapura

lunch with mr tan and eric at swensen's today was revealing
although i had my eyes on the chick behind the 2 giants most of the time
if only we had lunch earlier..if only

perhaps it's the emotional side of me
perhaps i got too attached to the place
people will never know
only i will

anyway there's use lamenting about tomorrow's departure
another school term has begun
with new friendships to be made
and broken.

it has never happened if the memory is not there
human memory is just a record

you can't write that record

the story so far

in case you guys do not already know, i've been working at NIE for the past 1 and 3/4 month.
today is the 4th last day of work
i just can't wait for it to end
not that i hate to work or anything
but due to other reasons which only my closest buddies will know / can deduce about
througout the past week i've been rushing to finish everything so that i can enjoy my last few days of work at nie
and i've been doing that since then
day in day out bytes of my hardisk are being used and unused
what's the cause? -----> movies
i think i've watched around 20 or more movies already
i'm getting seriously lethargic
anyway the thought of school reatsrting is already getting into my soul
affecting me in every enjoyment which i am about to embark on
the fact that i'll be in year 3 and the letters FYP are aready freaking me out
things will be tougher this year
with a fallen star which i can no longer meet up with in school and go back with
no love of my life
and better still
no decent number of people which i can really trust when it comes to projects
but like they always say "what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger"
i'll screw them all