for the loss

firstly, to begin with, i'd like to give bigpond some credit for helping me load this page in 30 seconds. the gayest amount of time encountered during my time here.
secondly, i'll give credit to the sun. which is beginning to rise at 4.30am over here. it's so disgusting.
thridly, i think it's time to bitch.

the assignments have all be safely handed in, notwithstanding the amount of compiling and recompiling and printing and reprinting of assignments due to a very catty standards set out by hmm whats his name? i guess i forgot. ohwell.

i havent been studying much either. everytime i want to study i'll be distracted by something be it wow or hee or hunger pangs or whatever. guess i'll start to worry by mid week or proabbly thursday? that's where the sense of urgency comes in. somehow, this semester's modules seem to be heavy on memory work. which i like..but then again, my memory seems to be all over the shop.
life just sucks i guess once you think you will eb able to do something a distraction comes along and knocks you back to hell. and when you climb out of it some moron will kick you back in. so how do you resolve this issue? fill up hell with shit so that there'll be no hellhole to fall into in the first place..
which lead me to how about am i going to do it
been thinking of doing a masters degree lately, but somehow i'm scared. with the use of profound english and celestial-level thinking and arguments, i don't know how am i going go about starting on one in the first place. although the professor has assured me that i would be guided, somehow i feel helpless, or even useless.
oh well i just have to see how well i'll do for the exams...which at this rate i'll probably be getting -3 for my grades.

the road is winding
the lanes clear
but somehow i oversteered
skidded, tumbled crashed
and burned.
leaving me in this state of no return
maybe?

give me a break this post was written at 4.31am ffs.