against all odds

right now i am experiencing a psycological warfare
i am about to take my stupid napfa test in 2.5 hrs time
the results look bleak but the desire to pass it within today is my driving force right now
however, for every inspiration there is a damper
what if what if what if seems to ring continuously
droning into my head relentlessly

game over

last night was my last night at 7-11
the store was irritatingly busy when i was just about to leave
some farewell bidding huh

i reached home only to notice that the dead fish in the tank had floated up
and that my maid had helped me throw it away while i was in a hurry to go to work the previous night
and so here am i
free from work
but not from this mental prison

i have wasted yet another day