here is now

the wait is over
i finally got my damn PS2 today
although i am $650 poorer, i'm sure i did not make a wrong choice in investing in such a console.
it has been 9 years since i last owned a game console
what have i been doing then?
i was probably too oblivious of the gaming world outside of my shores
anyway i'm writing this blog for the record.
let's just hope the ps2 would not be my downfall
i'm off ..to the games

question of life

i finally drowned today.
i saw the signs yet did not bother preparing
PWA finally killed me
Soon the other modules will skin me
softly, gently peeling me
cell by cell, skin by skin
until all that remains is but a tormented soul

many have fallen, many have failed
yet up till tdy i still hailed
pride comes before a fall
why is it that i fell
when i did not have pride at all

how apt it should be termed life is beautiful
when the only beautiful thing is death itself
my lamentations would never be understood
until the day death comes

if only i could walk away
if only i could sleep
i'd never be forced
to carry on this pointless feat

what is it that i seek
i asked a tree
it did not respond

indeed.

reqium for microsoft

some damn thing always happens they say
just 2 days(or maybe 1; i've lost touch of time) ago i reformatted my laptop
only to have it boot up slower than before

and now i'm doing another reformat
on my haunted desktop.
everything went well before the format...
until xp started to mess up

it's alright, a simple reformat would do was what i told myself
but never did i expect that xp ould screw me up again
this time...networking was not possible

here at 2.35 am, monday morning
where i sould be clearing movies or probably biking around
i am seated
in my cold solemn den
nursing a runny nose from God knows where i got it from
and installing windows 2000 professional

if bill gates was right in front of me
i would burn all my microsoft products
and probably feed him my hard disk.

if the world did not depend so much on microsoft as it depended on evil
if the world did not use computers but do things the traditional way
if the world would stop and think about what are they living for actually
if the world did not exist
if the world would suddenly end too soon
what did we work for
what did we live for
if the world would suddenly end
virtual reality and reality
would be no more

what time is it ?

the title wasn't chosen because it rung a bell to the country's beer
but rather, because i really want to know
the whole of saturday has been turned upside down
i hit the sack at around 8 in the morning only to wake up at 1300 hours
talk about nocturnal
i hate myself.
instead of making time worth the while i HAD to play warcraft 3
until i fell asleep at 7pm only to wake up at 10pm
what an idiot. but anyway, if not now..then when?
i'm going to force myself to sleep right now
now