finding emo

as the day draws near i can't help but feel emo abt it
going back to the land of slow internet speeds with capped bandwidth
and even though i'll probably miss friends and family, it would not be so bad if i had
been given better internet connectivity

as i go around the land gathering stuff for my departure i can't help but think "this is probably the last time i see this place until a year later" or "this is probably the last time i'll eat this until a year later" and though i will come back eventually, it'll not be as much as the close-to-3 month break which i have been enjoying since dec 06 till now. like they said all good things must come to an end

oh well. in the weeks to come i expect life to be pretty fucked up again, house-hunting, new-friends making, getting acclimatised back to the aussie way of life. thinking about it just makes me feel like a hypocrite. not to mention the challenges and shit that await me through the voyage of research.
thing's like "am i good enough, am i worthy , can i pull it off" keep ringing in my head and even as i pack, i'm wondering if i'm packing the right stuff. too many shirts? too many crew neck tees? how should a research student dress like? definetly not the way i dressed when i did my bachelor's (which was btw t-shirt berms and slippers) looking back i've been such a punk but who cares? it's australia anyway.

while i'm at this emo stage of shit i'd like to thank all the friends who have stuck by me while i was away the past year as well as those kind enough to come out and play while i was back. the pnsd guys especially, i really enjoyed the birthday sessions as well as the farewell meetup which we had yesterday. and not forgetting dennis the kok who didn't want anyone to know he was flying off cos he was afraid that he would cry, maybe, just maybe i would visit him during easter..plans are not that concrete yet.

I probably won't be meeting any of you guys anytime soon which brings me back to the "this is probably the last time i do something" shit. well at least we still can talk cock on msn or via my digital line. all the best and stay drunk.

remember. life sucks. take drugs.

back to packing!

cny 2007

time has passed me once more and i'm 1 week away from heading back to oz.
back to expensive meals
shops which close at 5
really spastic transport system
and slow internet

in the mean time:

xin nian kuai le,gong xi fa cai, wan shi ru yi, nian nian you yu, long ma jing shen,cai qi gun gun.

we all know we say this year in year out just for the sake of saying them. and i am too.

empty words mean nothing

the only words which i would really want to say to you guys are:
hope you get more red packet money and:

go hug a tree. it helps