2005

just got back from cozy bay and then bedok 85 with justin and ah pek and another friend of his who wanted to tell me more about UNSW. Seems like almost everyone who has gone to australia to study is in UNSW. strange indeed. sylvie came to join us a little later and the usual talk cock session began. apparently she knows ahpek's friend and vice versa. small world indeed. which if why one of my new year's resolutions is to be nice to everyone. 2004 ended with rain. it's really silly the way i counted down....luckily for me my backup plan worked although the moment i reached the indoor stadium's carpark, opened my driver seat door and put my right foot down i heard "1..HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!" i missed the moment, yet embraced it who knows what thaty meant for the rest of the year...

a new time a new mind
a new moment in
the same land of mine
will i be filled with sorrow
joy or despair
in such an era
of uncertain affairs
i wish for strength
courage and mind
to help me go through
life's issues of slime

so the year has not yet ended

woke up abt 20 mins ago to a blacked sky. i thought i had missed the countdown
but in the end i realised that it was only raining..heavily
2 groups have emerged. one wants to chiong and get wasted while the other just wants a peaceful one gathered at someone's place to chat the year away.
but it's raining

i don't wanna get wet
i hate to be wet

but time is running out and i think daddys going out with the the car.

so the year is ending

i just wasted 10 minutes while trying to open an opendiary a/c but got so pissed at the stupid offers and marketing shit which they so fervently bombard me with that i just decided to end the process by clicking on the "x" button at the top right hand corner.

it's almost 3 and i still have no plans on what to do for the night.
am i a loser? it's kinda sad realising that i was kinda late in planning for what to do. all my friends who have girlfriends are out with them the ones who don't are out with other friends. leaving me alone? have i no friends?
k lame attempt at acting pitiful there.
right now my main concern is getting sleep. worst come to worst i hang out with miss PS2 lor.

somehow i'm been having a bad bout of "bad luck/shit/suayness" (whatever you call it) and it seems to be stretching into the new year. i hope it ends soon even though i know life isn't fair. i hope 2005 will be a better one for me. 2004 gave me a hope that maybe love would find its way to me...it did...but it died. not having hopes of it resurrecting in 2005 though....we'll see
i hope the office will become a better place too...with me acting though and all maybe those tyrants will think that i'm a fiesty one and disturb me less....we'll see

but in the words of yunalesca from ffx "hope is comforting" - something used to console us in times of shit when it actually doesn't help the situation.

argh gotta sleep i sense insanity coming soon. like one big emotional tsunami.

a movie; the zoo; dead bodies



the past night i was out watching a movie with a girl friend of mine --something which i stopped doing since i entered the beautiful world of NS. the movie was crap; oceans twelve somehow didn't give me that sense of thrill which ocean's eleven gave when i watched the movie maybe like three years ago. and yes marina square cineplex is screwed i can't believe that i spent 15 minutes trying to locate the damn cinema cos of their concurrent renovation works for a better future. for those of you all who wanna watch a movie at marina, enter by the ritz side or the oriental side (walk to oriental's main entrace and go up the stairs there); movie aside, managed to catch up on things with reggie after like so long of not seeing her. i have to admit that maybe there's still hope for mankind. with a person like her who's so ever willing to help others (in the area of social work) and being optimistic and all. those who know me will know that i'm the opposite. mankind is doomed. anyways i wish her the best in her pursuit of finding a good husband and settling down. (that's her plan in 5 years,she's working on it)oh after that i went to meet up with another friend of mine: ah pek who just got back from sydney for his vacation. told me lots of shit abt the new uni life overseas and stuff. seems to me there're alot of stuff which i have yet to think about. my only big worry is i hope the friend i'm going with will be able to tahan all those shit..if not i will be shit too.


woke up at 1.45pm tdy and turned on my phone...only to realised that i have 7 missed calls and 7 smses. well done. i have failed in my maintanence of SQA by waking up late. i was suppossed to meet darryl at ginza plaza at 12.30pm and go to the zoo together with kennetha nd stanley. after abt 5 minutes of calling here and there to set new timings, i proceeded to take a 5 minute express bath while darryl made his way to my house. then the best thing happened. rain fell from the heavens. it was no damper though, we did go to the zoo in the end (it has changed incredibly the last time i visited it when i was still in pri 1) though we could have spent more time there. the animals was all kinda bored as usual. i must say the best occupation in life would be an animal living in the zoo. you get to slack and eat free food until the day you die.hate people looking at you? find a corner and sleep. if you're bored you can escape the zoo and have a little odyssey of your own and yes, you get to see chicks and hunks either through the looking glass or a few feet away from the moat of your enclosure. who knows, it may seem that the zoo has come to you instead. children and guys chasing girls are definetly animals. maybe i shall get free tickets again next year.

everyday from 4 days ago i can't help but hear/see news of the tsunamis that struck acheh every breathing moment of my life. in a way, looking at the dead bodies strewn haphazardly on the once prefect shorelines of the tourist islands of asia seemed like the scene from final fantasy x, where SIN attacked the coastal town of Kilika...and also the part where they tried to destroy sin but failed. now i know why they say Life's like a game. it's depressing. and with so many people missing at all. depressing. i guess the only thing i can do right now is say prayers to those affected. because eventually, everything is emotional.

boxing day

i'm finally back from around the world
from my previous entry till now i visited my uncle's place for christmas dinner, made a trip to sylvia's houses to fetch a damn bird only to deliver it to my other uncle's at kallang bahru. Felt bored so i decided to head on down to town to meet up with my colleagues from PNSD. headed back home to grab sylvia's present and my neighbour b4 reappearing at her place to give it to her.

so this is it. Christmas come and gone. it took so much effort to wait in expectation and now it's come and gone. sounds so much like a relationship which ended in breakup huh. 5 more damn days to the new year. 2004 has been a shitty year for me.

Another year, Another tree
But this year you won't be with me
and now it's gone leaving me
to wait one whole year
yesterday used to be, my favorite holiday
My Christmas Eve was filled with dreams
But Today came and chased them all away

Why did you leave me for Christmas?
You left me lonely its true
Could you have waited til New Years?
At least the year would be through
And now the misletoe's hanging
For no reason at all
And all the presents are unwrapped
But there isn't You.

because eventually, everything is emotional.