so the year is ending

i just wasted 10 minutes while trying to open an opendiary a/c but got so pissed at the stupid offers and marketing shit which they so fervently bombard me with that i just decided to end the process by clicking on the "x" button at the top right hand corner.

it's almost 3 and i still have no plans on what to do for the night.
am i a loser? it's kinda sad realising that i was kinda late in planning for what to do. all my friends who have girlfriends are out with them the ones who don't are out with other friends. leaving me alone? have i no friends?
k lame attempt at acting pitiful there.
right now my main concern is getting sleep. worst come to worst i hang out with miss PS2 lor.

somehow i'm been having a bad bout of "bad luck/shit/suayness" (whatever you call it) and it seems to be stretching into the new year. i hope it ends soon even though i know life isn't fair. i hope 2005 will be a better one for me. 2004 gave me a hope that maybe love would find its way to me...it did...but it died. not having hopes of it resurrecting in 2005 though....we'll see
i hope the office will become a better place too...with me acting though and all maybe those tyrants will think that i'm a fiesty one and disturb me less....we'll see

but in the words of yunalesca from ffx "hope is comforting" - something used to console us in times of shit when it actually doesn't help the situation.

argh gotta sleep i sense insanity coming soon. like one big emotional tsunami.