i cannot take this anymore

sometimes i feel that i don't know myself anymore
i play the saint in front of others when i'm actually the
devil incarnate. (as in the case of pushing work not withn my job-scope away to others) but that's the way this world works doesn't it?
full of pretence, sweet nothings and empty promises
but somehow a part of me says "you can't do this",
"it's just so wrong", "stop being a hypocrite"
hypocrisy is relative now
and so does goodwill
but sometimes i just want to break free of it all...and get hurt in the process?
fuckit.

is there any redemption in all of this?

maybe someday there will be
maybe not.
whatever it is, screw the whole lot

we used to share and care for one another when we were young
remember the days in pri/sec school?
but once we're out we build a wall
and undercut each other to reach our own goals.

life wasn't meant to be this way does it?
but then again, even in a world of perfection
we still fall

as in the case of adam and eve.

so where is the love where is the happiness
the joy we all thirst

true poetry was written by a powerful drunk.