minority report

i just got back from a 2D1N sai kang session at sentosa...was there with the usual bunch of guys helping in the preparation for the spans real-run event which was later held this morning. it wasn't as if i was so siao-on and wanted to help them it was more for the hours which would give me at least 3.5 days off. however, i'm been wondering lately what's the point of earning so many hours, when i have to clear them within 6 mths form the date of acquisition. thus i have decided. i will not chiong hours until my last 6 months in NS. i wonder why did they called it national service....should have termed it national sai-kang instead.
anyway the event wasn't entirely a fucked up one with me being pissed all the time. we had our fair share of moments. moments of rage and moments of joy, moments of boredom and moments of pain. most importantly it has led me to further understand the people around me--both good and bad points.

sometimes i question the meaning of maturity, the meaning of "giving face", the meaning of tolerance, and the meaning of being blunt. all of which have governed my actions in my dealings with people. most of the time i may appear to be receptive of people's requests for assistance/favours. but another part of me always questions the worthiness of it all. most of the time that other part is correct no matter how hard i fight to work against it. so the saying goes, even though you try hard not to step on other people's toes, it may not be others' intention to do likewise"