dreams|reality

after a week of slacking, backstabbings, fun, boredom , having no money and of course anime; it is time to start another week. right now everyday is just another day to me and like the happy sign pasted on my office computer monitor "today is just another day. it would be over soon" shall ever hold true.

frankly speaking, i'm quite contented with the shit that i am in now, yes i am still serving shitty NS and yes i am still being used like a whore , and yes the bitch is still pissing me off although not so often now ; but after looking at all these, the people around me are still able to balance off the shittiness of everything. right now the only thing i am concerned is what would happen AFTER they ORD. then i will be stuck in the same shit, but without anything to keep my spirits up.

have been mercilessly watching anime for the whole week, i think i cleared about 4 series and still embarking on more. somehow whenever i indulge in anime i feel relaxed. perhaps its the only way for me to gain what those people call nirvana or an orgasm. just kidding. if only life was THAT surreal and perfect and full of vanilla skies like those in anime (a little bit of sword wielding and magic casting would also be nice)

OKAY i am sounding GAY right now with the "if only" , "if only", "if only" shit.

ask anyone what and why are they alive. other than the usual "i am living for GOD" many would be at a loss for words.

all i can say is :

argh! fuck it!