that feeling of lan lan-nes (translation :being unable to do something when something shitty goes wrong)

i woke up this morning to the 5am sky cos i had volunteered my services for sai kang work for SPANS at PA. Woke up at 5 cos i was suppossed tio meet my friends at 6am at clementi mrt stn and what did you know.. apparently the first bus was able to get me there on time, but not my friends. the first train would only arrive at 6.10am and they stayed at boonlay and jurong east. wtf man i ended up waiting for them -> lan lan.

after meeting up with them to go to office, everyone except the driver was early and we couldn't get to pa on time --> lan lan

arrived at pa and i was tasked to be the waterboy as well as carpark warden with another friend of mine -> that wasn't too bad until some lame ass indian shithead thought that he was a big fuck and backed his car into a reserved lot by reversing over the cordon tape and walked away -> lan lan

after everything was done i went back to office and after showering and all i called my dad to check if he was in the area (cos he usually goes to bt merah to eat after chuirch svc with my mum) and i thought that maybe i could hitch a ride back home from them. he told me he was at home already. and so i proceeded back by the shitty public transpot.

went back home only to NOT FIND my dad's car in the carpark and no one at home. fuck. he lied to me. --> lan lan

after so much thought i just realised that nothing much can be done if a person does something against things they call rules, morals,protocol. so what if you complain about him and so what if justice has been done? can it bring back a life; can it bring back the love; can it undo the damage or rid the scars; can it buy back wasted time;missed opportunities and the list goes on... the fucking answer is NO. they always say "the customer is always right"-> which in itself that statement is already eternally wrong.

LAN LAN- the mother of all sianess (translation : boredom; apathy).

what is deemed socially unacceptable
is usually in itself ironically socially acceptable

i think i will be able to complile my blog into a thesis very soon with all this bitching.