why do i feel so sad

yesterday was a day of madness
2 rabbit cages, 3 habitrail space stations, 3 metal hamster cages and 7 medium sized pet habitat containers were all crammed into my dad's car to be cleared off at a number of pet shops around the island.
in the end almost everything was cleared off except for 2 breeding pairs of rodents and a few other critters. crazy day i must say
anyway, although we managed to pack the animals into the car, sell them off, wash the cages etc, have a so-so dinner and met up with old friends; (we as in me and satan child) i somehow feel a prescence of despair in me. as if something was missing. something which i always wanted to do, could do but have not done it. what a fucked up feeling right
damn if only i knew what was missing. probably i wouldn't be blogging right now.