the last day of freedom

today is my last day of freedom before i begin my 20-week ns prep training into oblivion
somehow somewhere inside of me wants to go all out into having a full fledged day of fun by completing whatever things i had always wanted to do before ns. however, another part of me just wants to sit in my set apart space at home dwelling in solace getting prepared for the big day tomorrow because there's no escaping the day tomorrow. the former would just be running away from it. in my view ns would be fun though its the initial making of friends that would be hard oh well. 21 hours left.