lunatic pandemonium

as i grow older, the lunar new year starts to become more of a dread than a festivity.
what were days of running about and playing pranks at my relatives's houses are no more
today was a real damper.
ever since the demise of my grandmother the family has invisibly broken up into smaller self-contained clusters
the mood of family seemed disturbingly off today, so much so that i just felt like asking everyone what the hells was going on
i hate the future. christmases, new years and birthdays were so much more enjoyable in the past