winterspring. Literally


it's winterspring right now.
sailing on the fringe of winter and the frontier of spring
in a way i'm quite sad...cos it would mean the cone of cold would be gone forever
i hate heat. if given a choice i would freeze to death then burn out.

the daylight hours would be longer too.
being a nocturnal person. i just hate to see the sun. don't ask me why i just don't. even in the day i would usually draw the curtains of my room, nestling in the dark
it somehow conforts me. shorter daylight hours would mean sleeping more in the day and staying up lesser at night. how am i going to live my life then? lol

been struggling with myself lately. trying not to be the devil when circumstances really are reasons justifiable enough for me to be one. maybe i've become more messed up, judging others before myself. hmm oh well, guess i'll continue to endure for 3 more months before it's all over.

the semester is starting to get hard, with my "hate module of the semester" bing R/3 Systems Administration. It's too technical imo, that sometimes i feel just being an admin for such a ridiculously large amout of work just doesn't pay off. can someone make me see a point in R/3 Systems Admin? i know it pays well..but the work....it's just disgusting. From the lesser or 2 evils, i'd rather choose enterprise systems.

my ecommerce module, though do-able is making me lose direction too...cos the marks allocated to it are just too ridiculous. so much work for so little marks. its fucking depressing.

and disgusting.

i've got a new friend in the house to keep me sane. her name's faye and her waking hours are now the same as mine. lets just hope my dad doesn't know cos i think he'll flip.

but then again, after telling my mum, i'm sure he'll still flip. i can already imagine the words he will say to me "you better study ah dun waste my money and buang ur exams"

right. in order to study i have to be sane. in order to be sane, i'll need faye. it's times like this when i feel that my mum is uber.

it's the little things that make; and break people

maybe a greater thing will happen
give it sometime and we will see

the ekka


i just went to the much overhyped "ekka" yesterday and boy did i learn more about our world. basically the ekka to me (neutral understanding) is a place where farm people bring their stuff to showcase to the city dwellers that there are such things as cows sheep goats and other barn animals existing on this earth...instead of just cartoons. and well, for the city dwellers, it is for them to boast about the latest vacuum cleaner which can clean carpets and other techie stuff about technology to the farm dwelling people. a rather diplomatic approach i shoud say. this, may sound like a trade fair, but no. they have decided to put rides and a stage and fireworks at night to attract the public and kids to come visit the trade fair (which has now become a carnival with all the added rides and stage and stuff)

all these for 15 bucks.

omg and you even have to pay for the rides how cool is it. well, to me, the ekka is just another overhyped event much mouthed about by kids and normal denezens whom i encounter on the street everyday. a place where the stench of ass greets you at the gates (well maybe because they place the cattle too near the train station exit?), cow, goat bull shit, vomit, ketchup stains and other sorts of weird matter all over the ground and not forgetting the ever-entertaing bumfight which my friend witnessed while waiting for me as i went swinging into the air and thrown about in a cage for 7 bucks. oh not forgetting the screaming snotty kids that made a helluva noise...all around.

well, it was an eye opener, but i'd rather go to the zoo or movieworld. much effort put into it really, but not SQA enough.

brand new start, same old shit again


ok so i am back in brissy. back to the uber coldness, the lower efficiency rates of work and of course, the retarded high-speed internet speeds.

everything's now new. it's just the same old shit again

anyway it's been awhile since i updated so i shall summarize:

1. thanks to all the guys for the meetup sessions we had when i was back home. you guys agve me reason to come back. well, i ahd to dump my stuff also so..on the way la huh.
2. i finally went to movieworld in the Gold Coast and drove up north to the Sunshine Coast during the first week when i was back -- a friend of mine from melbourne came to visit, so i kinda took the opportunity tobring him around and tour movie world. verdict. it's a place for kids. and of all the rides. i only reccomment lethal weapon and the superman ride. what really impressed me was how fast the rollercoaster carraige could accelerate from 0- god knows what speed.

it was so fun until i ahd to sit it 3 times....well i could have sat it for the whole day but we had to eat so...wadahell..

anyway i'm having a 2 day school work now.
some of you guiys might think "more time for johnny to study" but fuck lor....the weather makes me so want to sleep that i always end up sleeping more then i study.
wake me up from my eternal dream please.

this sem's gonna suck a bit cos i'll be doing 2 modules in SAP R/3 Systems Administration... it looks like a pain in the ass..and it will soon feel like too.

i'm still deciding if i should sell my soul to it though... decisions decisions. and tdys national day isn't it? hmm...no national day fever here...but there's going t be a public holiday next wednesday over here for some carnival...can u believe it? i love this country man...ever so willing to hand out holidays...

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saving grace

its been arnd 2.5 weeks since i got back from oz
and i got back my results today
i managed to pass my damn database design module..which i knew i was a gone case
it goes to show that Saving Grace from God never runs out....though it should never be taken for granted.
i am greatly humbled.
the module was a real bitch (ask those close to me and you;ll know)
and yet i still managed to scrape through it

thank you God,
i was a man without no faith
but You showed me grace and taught me to learn.

and now i can carry on to burn that damn textbook.
without regrets

home

have been in singapore for 23.5hrs already
one big notable differernce is the damn weather
it's so damn hot and humid here that i have that sticky feeling all over again
another major difference is the roads.
they're smoother, leveller and the signs definetly do not confuse
unlike queensland's

so much for "better roads for queensland"

spent the day doing most of the shit which i had to do since i'm back
and of course not forgetting eating the uber local fare here which is like a hundred times cheaper and better tasting than the ones down under

hmm..
ah bengs, singlish tanned skin
long legs and tiny waistlines
truly,
this is home.

that shitty feeling

i'm 7 days away from home
caught in between 2 fucking exams
one is bright the other's decay
time to buy, time to live myself
but living's not getting better
with my impending doom

i'm 6 days away from home
still caught in between 2 fucking exams
one's still bright
the other one's gloom
time tried and time consumed
getting smarter? yes? no?
hopefully so

time to buy and time to choose
i've only got 4 days to live..

selah

into your hands i commit thee
into your hands i fall
whatever will come and is to come
shall not taunt me
evermore.

argh

silent repression,
pure essence of downfall
and like prettly slivers of silver
they cut me so right
trailing my blood
as i drag myself
into June.

winterspring

winter's here and the exams are near
week 14 has begun and wtf am i doing?
i need motivation man
the cold isn't helping either.
i have stopped wearing shorts and slippers cos i'll probably freeze to death in them
makes me sleepy too...i hate my bed

tdy was so-called te last day of school so i guess i'm on my on now...
winter is so emo.

imagine this. exams + alone in a foreign land + cold

emo man.

teleportation

hmm it's that time of the semester again
exams and assignments are pissing me off right now.
and there's one more thing that's bugging me
whether should i return back to sg for my vacation for 1 month
or stay in brisbane/go tour sydney.

the crux is : it'll cost me 1.2k odd to fly back.

after thinking abt it for awhile,i've decided to ,akle a count of the number of people who want me to come back.

public sub shouldJohnnyReturn (ByVal sender As System.Object, ByVal e As System.EventArgs) Handles MyBase.Load

if countWantJohnnyBack >= 10 then
call johnnyFlies home
else
johnnyStays
end if
end sub

outage

haven't been updating in a while. cos i probably did not have time to do it. funny though how time seems to fly by right here. it's been like...12,13 weeks since i came....weird. right now assignments seem to overwhelm me. to the brink that i have no time to study. hopefully i'll be able to catch up soon or there goes the degree. many people think studying in Oz would be easy....wait till they come over. it is UNI life after all--no difference in that.

my lifestyle's getting pretty fucked up too. sleeping at 2am or later and waking up at 7am only to drowse through the lectures. maybe i should sleep earlier...waking up at 12 on non school days isn't helping either. i need to wake up my idea soon.

over the easter holidays i drove down to Byron Bay (into NSW) and the view there was majestic.




where in sg could you find that?



and this



i bet if i kicked you off the cliff over there you wouldn't even mind dying.

farewell.

missing home? Not so soon?!!!!!!!!!


alright. after like 7 weeks in this place i think i am starting to miss home abit. travelling around the state is so damn fucking inconvenient without the fast craft back home. the shops close at like 5pm and the streets are empty by 8pm.
but one things's for sure....the days here pass me by damn quickly. somehow i feel that i do not have enough time for anything. which makes me wonder why.

the modules are getting tougher...which means i would have to start catching up soon b4 the big snowball hits... and i miss

QOO. I miss
haagen dazs ice creem. i miss
the wanton me which sells until 3am at my house's food centre. i miss
driving around town back home after a late night movie. i miss
ngee ann city. i miss going
into JB as and when i like. i miss
the other stupid stuff which i usually do at home.

it's ironic cos i don't miss the Land. i just miss the memories which i had on it. does that constitute to home? home is probably called home cos my family and friends are over there. nothing else.

but then again. i kind of like my life of independance right now. the only thing that i lack is probably discipline.

anyway...since i missed home... i started to look for food relating to it...and found the closest thing to authentic hor fun in sg. note the word : closest.




went there with a girlfriend and we were like so damn high after seeing the menu. it was located at west end. obviously, we took the stupid public transport.



you know one thing which i like about this place? it's the damn sky. it's always so blue and emo. when it's gray, it's emo. when it's raining , it's emo, when it's sunny, it's shit.

I was wandering around the supermarket one day and guess what i found :



OMG. it's like so fucking rare here. apparently the variety of vegetables here is so damn pathetic that i'm better off eating grass. anyway, i made my uber herbal tea with that. from a one day sore throat to no sore throat at all...well after drinking down 12 cups of it.

and since life is already so Les Misérables, i decided to make my own poseur ice cream. damn gay man.



as you can see , i am damn bored. but after writing out all these shit. i feel like studying already

farewell.

Blah

Test test test

Blogging via the Motorola 3vx..

This is my first attempt to blog via my 3g phone...

5 weeks on



with the 5th week into Oz i can safely say i'm well settled in. Trying to study now since there're no more excuses not to cos everything has already been done. looking back, i'm not so much of a noob right now as compared to my *ahem* counterparts. things have also turned out the way i wanted it to be (well with a few GOOD exceptions and shitty ones) the shitty exception is that i was forced to quit WoW; or rather, not play WoW cos of the primitive internet connection speed in this suppossedly high tech country which i am residing in. But then again, its good cos i will have 1 less distraction. But then again, when one door closes another one opens, which means there should be something else to distract me soon. Life is so fun isn't it. pfffft.

anyway, notable events which have happened in the past few weeks :

- i found out that i hate my database design module.
- followed by systems analysis and design. they should rename it systems ANAL-lysis and design
- my 5 year old oakleys broke (fuck that)
- i bought a new ipod video woohoo (i regretted selling my old one away but then again, the battery life for the previous ipod was really shitty)
- i've quit/gone on hiatus for wow
- its getting cold here.. but i like it
-more to come soon i guess

cheerio.

you sang to me



you came to me at twilight
in the damp of a cold room
we shared a coke and popcorn
amidst a morbid setting
7 days was all you had
to get me hooked to you
7 days was what it took
to spend my life with you

we travelled the lands of azeroth
across the Great Sea
into neutral and horde terrorities
and eventually into MC

18 days was what it took
before you became the Queen
and though you died a million time
i hope you won't think of me as mean

we shed many tears from 1 to 60
and laughed a decade
at the corpses of our enemies
pure revenge and immortal love
was the bond between us

and though i love you
i have to say goodbye
continuing on would
lead to a broken heart,
a salted tear
love can be much pain

where is the good in good-bye?


do not stand at my grave and weep
i did not die, i do not sleep
do not stand at my grave and cry
i am not there, i did not die

goodbye ivalice.

death of oakleys




my pair of oakleys just died today after 5 years of accident free mishandling. I didn't know how the hell the spectacle arms could just break off. i guess plastic really sucks over time. when it's new it's new but after awhile when age kicks in it becomes brittle. hmm..that's the case for most things on this goddamn earth isn't it? nothing lasts forever. which makes me wonder. what's the bloody point of life anyway.

oh well since they were broken i decided to smash it into smithereens anyway.

i did not forget you guys



the past 3 weeks have been crazy for me. landing in a country which i've never set foot upon before and settling my accomodation and school stuff within the first few days. it was so crazy that i did not even have time to miss home. not that i'm missing it already but yup, looking back it was really crazy. the first few days were spent living in a pathetic litte matchbox-sized hotel room with space only decent for an ant to live in. searching for accomadation was easy for me though cos me and my housemates had already come to a stage of desperation whereby anything with a decent roof will do. but hey, at least the place i'm living at right now is cool. to be frank, its actually nicer than my home back home. though lacking in the "home" part. it's more of a house. but then again. i like the silence of it. the streets however, aren't that silent. with retards revving their modified cars and fire engines whizzing by with their blaring sirens every 5 mins.
i've since settled down...the last thing which i settled was my internet. which i have been so piously bitching about in teh past few entries. but really. i almost cried when i realised i could connect to the net. sad; i've become a victim of technology.
and noe that i'm settled. i just realised i haven't thanked the people who supported me all the way in my decision to come to Oz to study. to begin with. my parents. who are so damn worried that i would go astray if i ever came over. don't worry i won't. i now what i'm doing. it's just that sometimes you have to find things out on your own and then you'll begin to understand stuff. thanks to my uncles and aunties too who supported me morally and financially. to my secondary school friends, who stuck by me all this while. to the guys over at PNS department - they threw this uber birthday cum farewell party for me the day before. thanks lots guys don;t forget me ok. oh and to sylvia too who purposely flew to brissy to help me get settled and carry my 17 inch lcd screen over from sg. and to jess too whole came up from GC to help with my household establishment shit. you guys were dolls.
to all the people who sent me off at the airport that day. I'm sorry i couldn't talk to you guys all at one time and that i had to leave before one of them could arrive at the airport cos the plane was about to leave. yeah thanks for coming even though u guys knew i was going away for 1 year only. i'll be back at the end of the year dun worry. in the meantime i guess Msn will be our main mode of contact or skype or maybe the phone? but phone charges here are spastic. 37 cents for half a minutes wtf. truly satanic man.

alright i shall end here. watch this space for it will continue to be my source of sanity.

because eventually, everything is emotional.

I is for Internet and Internet is for me


WOOHOOOO my fucking Internet is finally up after 2 weeks of stupid time wasting by the ever promising ISP. thanks for the lousy service B***P*** you guys really HELPED A LOT by delaying the activation. anyways i spent 2 fucking hours trying to configure the damn network cos the stupid modem refuses to have its DHCP disabled. guess that's what you get when u use modems provided by stupid ISPs sigh.
oh well. my life can be considered back on track right now...all i need now is my textbooks ...

sunrise changes our lives

YAY. 10 days since i signed up for Internet and still no Internet. Makes me wonder if the POND has any more fishes still residing in it...cos at this rate i think most of the fishes would have left or died after being disgusted by such "excellent" service.

anyway here i am back in school camping in after heading home from a lecture at 9am. and i just got back from The Gold Coast too. fun 2 days though i wished it had been longer. the waves were awesome ...so much that i think i MUST be able to surf before i leave this island.

we had rented a car; a 2005 mitsubishi lancer,wondered why they wouldn't lend me the one with the V6 engine though. "oh you're underage" was what i got. i wanted to tell them "hey i've driven a damn LANDROVER down a 20m steep slope before and am still alive you noob" but hey, i resisted the urge. The drive was simple though the boring part was the speed limit. i remember having to jam the brakes after overtaking this 18 wheeler who was occupying the middle lane cos there was a cop camping to take my neoprint. Wonder if i got shot anot.

arrived in GC, went to pick up jess from griffith uni where she was the tourguide for our stay. whacked harbourtown's esprit and surf shops for clothes (to blend in with the locals) and then we went to surfers to check into our hotel. surfers is small. but its definetly more interesting than brisbane. the shops close later (say arnd 8-9) and there's the Great Sea. the surf, the smell of salt; not forgetting the emo-ness of it all. i forgot where we had dinner...oh some nan hai place and after that we drove down to colangatta.... located just at the fringe of Queensland and NSW to check out the night sky there. again. it beats singapore's mount faber/marina south and what have you HANDS down. we got bored so we drove into NSW and took some stupid pics b4 heading back to the hotel to crash

woke up at arnd 5 to check out the sunrise . the 1st proper one i ever saw. (the ones at west coast park are utter rubbish) not forgetting the beach was DAMN cold. 5am for a sunrise at surfers compared to a 7am one in sg? surfer's beat hands down.
went back to sleep and woke up at 11am(what a bloody waste of time) and so we drove to carrera market at i dunno where for breakfast and shop for stuff. din get anything tho cos there was nothing i liked. ok i liked the kantana blade but there was no one to use it on anyway. headed to Pacific Fair where i had to ram through the whole damn shopping centre cos we had like only 3 hrs to spare. and it was damn big.
at night we went to this place to check out glow-worms ...think it was nurimba national park or something. the journey up was damn cool
dark roads and starry skies and cruising at an average of 80km/h. it was like initial d. curvey narrow roads. fun. must do it again sometime. the nature reserve was surprisingly, well paved..or rather cemented, but you still need a torch light ; or panasonic fx9 camera (bright LCD screen!) to navigate your way around. but alas, we could not take pictues cos duh, it was too dark.
finished that little nature episode and we went to eat dinner at some chinese place at like 10pm? where david's brain obviously left the building cos for some strange reason, he was built to stay awake and sober before 10pm. oh well. drove to "The Spit"; another emo place where you can see stars (actually you can see them almost everywhere as long as the city glow is absent). after we got bored we headed back only to find our lot ws taken.. so we chucked the car somewhere else ..b4 heading to bed.
woke up sunday morning and drove back down to boring brisbane. "why did u go to brisbane?" a friend once asked. i'm asking myself this right now too.