Blah

Test test test

Blogging via the Motorola 3vx..

This is my first attempt to blog via my 3g phone...

5 weeks on



with the 5th week into Oz i can safely say i'm well settled in. Trying to study now since there're no more excuses not to cos everything has already been done. looking back, i'm not so much of a noob right now as compared to my *ahem* counterparts. things have also turned out the way i wanted it to be (well with a few GOOD exceptions and shitty ones) the shitty exception is that i was forced to quit WoW; or rather, not play WoW cos of the primitive internet connection speed in this suppossedly high tech country which i am residing in. But then again, its good cos i will have 1 less distraction. But then again, when one door closes another one opens, which means there should be something else to distract me soon. Life is so fun isn't it. pfffft.

anyway, notable events which have happened in the past few weeks :

- i found out that i hate my database design module.
- followed by systems analysis and design. they should rename it systems ANAL-lysis and design
- my 5 year old oakleys broke (fuck that)
- i bought a new ipod video woohoo (i regretted selling my old one away but then again, the battery life for the previous ipod was really shitty)
- i've quit/gone on hiatus for wow
- its getting cold here.. but i like it
-more to come soon i guess

cheerio.

you sang to me



you came to me at twilight
in the damp of a cold room
we shared a coke and popcorn
amidst a morbid setting
7 days was all you had
to get me hooked to you
7 days was what it took
to spend my life with you

we travelled the lands of azeroth
across the Great Sea
into neutral and horde terrorities
and eventually into MC

18 days was what it took
before you became the Queen
and though you died a million time
i hope you won't think of me as mean

we shed many tears from 1 to 60
and laughed a decade
at the corpses of our enemies
pure revenge and immortal love
was the bond between us

and though i love you
i have to say goodbye
continuing on would
lead to a broken heart,
a salted tear
love can be much pain

where is the good in good-bye?


do not stand at my grave and weep
i did not die, i do not sleep
do not stand at my grave and cry
i am not there, i did not die

goodbye ivalice.

death of oakleys




my pair of oakleys just died today after 5 years of accident free mishandling. I didn't know how the hell the spectacle arms could just break off. i guess plastic really sucks over time. when it's new it's new but after awhile when age kicks in it becomes brittle. hmm..that's the case for most things on this goddamn earth isn't it? nothing lasts forever. which makes me wonder. what's the bloody point of life anyway.

oh well since they were broken i decided to smash it into smithereens anyway.

i did not forget you guys



the past 3 weeks have been crazy for me. landing in a country which i've never set foot upon before and settling my accomodation and school stuff within the first few days. it was so crazy that i did not even have time to miss home. not that i'm missing it already but yup, looking back it was really crazy. the first few days were spent living in a pathetic litte matchbox-sized hotel room with space only decent for an ant to live in. searching for accomadation was easy for me though cos me and my housemates had already come to a stage of desperation whereby anything with a decent roof will do. but hey, at least the place i'm living at right now is cool. to be frank, its actually nicer than my home back home. though lacking in the "home" part. it's more of a house. but then again. i like the silence of it. the streets however, aren't that silent. with retards revving their modified cars and fire engines whizzing by with their blaring sirens every 5 mins.
i've since settled down...the last thing which i settled was my internet. which i have been so piously bitching about in teh past few entries. but really. i almost cried when i realised i could connect to the net. sad; i've become a victim of technology.
and noe that i'm settled. i just realised i haven't thanked the people who supported me all the way in my decision to come to Oz to study. to begin with. my parents. who are so damn worried that i would go astray if i ever came over. don't worry i won't. i now what i'm doing. it's just that sometimes you have to find things out on your own and then you'll begin to understand stuff. thanks to my uncles and aunties too who supported me morally and financially. to my secondary school friends, who stuck by me all this while. to the guys over at PNS department - they threw this uber birthday cum farewell party for me the day before. thanks lots guys don;t forget me ok. oh and to sylvia too who purposely flew to brissy to help me get settled and carry my 17 inch lcd screen over from sg. and to jess too whole came up from GC to help with my household establishment shit. you guys were dolls.
to all the people who sent me off at the airport that day. I'm sorry i couldn't talk to you guys all at one time and that i had to leave before one of them could arrive at the airport cos the plane was about to leave. yeah thanks for coming even though u guys knew i was going away for 1 year only. i'll be back at the end of the year dun worry. in the meantime i guess Msn will be our main mode of contact or skype or maybe the phone? but phone charges here are spastic. 37 cents for half a minutes wtf. truly satanic man.

alright i shall end here. watch this space for it will continue to be my source of sanity.

because eventually, everything is emotional.

I is for Internet and Internet is for me


WOOHOOOO my fucking Internet is finally up after 2 weeks of stupid time wasting by the ever promising ISP. thanks for the lousy service B***P*** you guys really HELPED A LOT by delaying the activation. anyways i spent 2 fucking hours trying to configure the damn network cos the stupid modem refuses to have its DHCP disabled. guess that's what you get when u use modems provided by stupid ISPs sigh.
oh well. my life can be considered back on track right now...all i need now is my textbooks ...

sunrise changes our lives

YAY. 10 days since i signed up for Internet and still no Internet. Makes me wonder if the POND has any more fishes still residing in it...cos at this rate i think most of the fishes would have left or died after being disgusted by such "excellent" service.

anyway here i am back in school camping in after heading home from a lecture at 9am. and i just got back from The Gold Coast too. fun 2 days though i wished it had been longer. the waves were awesome ...so much that i think i MUST be able to surf before i leave this island.

we had rented a car; a 2005 mitsubishi lancer,wondered why they wouldn't lend me the one with the V6 engine though. "oh you're underage" was what i got. i wanted to tell them "hey i've driven a damn LANDROVER down a 20m steep slope before and am still alive you noob" but hey, i resisted the urge. The drive was simple though the boring part was the speed limit. i remember having to jam the brakes after overtaking this 18 wheeler who was occupying the middle lane cos there was a cop camping to take my neoprint. Wonder if i got shot anot.

arrived in GC, went to pick up jess from griffith uni where she was the tourguide for our stay. whacked harbourtown's esprit and surf shops for clothes (to blend in with the locals) and then we went to surfers to check into our hotel. surfers is small. but its definetly more interesting than brisbane. the shops close later (say arnd 8-9) and there's the Great Sea. the surf, the smell of salt; not forgetting the emo-ness of it all. i forgot where we had dinner...oh some nan hai place and after that we drove down to colangatta.... located just at the fringe of Queensland and NSW to check out the night sky there. again. it beats singapore's mount faber/marina south and what have you HANDS down. we got bored so we drove into NSW and took some stupid pics b4 heading back to the hotel to crash

woke up at arnd 5 to check out the sunrise . the 1st proper one i ever saw. (the ones at west coast park are utter rubbish) not forgetting the beach was DAMN cold. 5am for a sunrise at surfers compared to a 7am one in sg? surfer's beat hands down.
went back to sleep and woke up at 11am(what a bloody waste of time) and so we drove to carrera market at i dunno where for breakfast and shop for stuff. din get anything tho cos there was nothing i liked. ok i liked the kantana blade but there was no one to use it on anyway. headed to Pacific Fair where i had to ram through the whole damn shopping centre cos we had like only 3 hrs to spare. and it was damn big.
at night we went to this place to check out glow-worms ...think it was nurimba national park or something. the journey up was damn cool
dark roads and starry skies and cruising at an average of 80km/h. it was like initial d. curvey narrow roads. fun. must do it again sometime. the nature reserve was surprisingly, well paved..or rather cemented, but you still need a torch light ; or panasonic fx9 camera (bright LCD screen!) to navigate your way around. but alas, we could not take pictues cos duh, it was too dark.
finished that little nature episode and we went to eat dinner at some chinese place at like 10pm? where david's brain obviously left the building cos for some strange reason, he was built to stay awake and sober before 10pm. oh well. drove to "The Spit"; another emo place where you can see stars (actually you can see them almost everywhere as long as the city glow is absent). after we got bored we headed back only to find our lot ws taken.. so we chucked the car somewhere else ..b4 heading to bed.
woke up sunday morning and drove back down to boring brisbane. "why did u go to brisbane?" a friend once asked. i'm asking myself this right now too.

a different light indeed

and so we called up the internet company after the promised "it'll be connected in 2-3 days". and so we weren't connected. after an annoying 20 minutes we were told "oh one of our staff forgot to activate you account. we can only do it next monday". good job guys. so 2-3 days actually means 9-10 days here? does it apply to my assignment due dates as well ? cos if it is i'll be so damn glad.

a different light. indeed

right now my days are spent mulling around the house. although school starts in like 4 days i can't do anything cos of the stupid internet connection. will probably head down to school with my lappy to d/l the notes. i should be heading down to the Coast if the monkeys are willing to go.

waiting

and so here i am back at the library like a destitute who's gone to the shelter for his free bowl of soup. damn my internet connection connection is still not active and i feel so useless without it.
went around town yesterday to get some clothes and was utterty disgusted when i realised i couldn't fit into almost ALL of them wtf!. my boardshorts size is like 30 and it's already hanging on my hips and the smallest size they had there was like..34. well done. guess i'll have to buy kids clothes or eat potatoes and junk food everyday. but luckily, i managed to find right sizes for tops at "Cotton On" i think it's like our equivilent at giordano. 2 polo tees for A$30. so COTTON ON FTW. i shall make it my anchor store. hopefully the factory outlets at Gold Coast will have my size if not i'll just have to cry more.

i miss my cable modem

it's been 8 days since i've arrived. since then i ahve moved into a 3 bedroom, 2 bathroom apartment on queen street (the equivilent of orchard road) and it takes me abt 20 minutes to get to school (on foot + bus) . The bus is, amazingly, FREE. the words which most people like to hear. so i guess i'll be saving quite abit on transport. But then again, i intend to get a mountain bike as the streets are kinda questionable when it gets as early as 8pm.
right now i still need a fan, a study lamp, a bicycle?, an the much needed INTERNET CONNECTION. just living without it makes me want to die. Will probably need clothes to cos i look to un-local to blend in with the people there. oh whatever. should be driving down to gold coast this weekend if everything works out well.

save me. I NEED INTERNET

starting out

and so here i am in Oz. the land down under. and the ozone hole just above it. it's my 4th day here. i actually had internet access right from the first day (courtesy of QUT) but the thought of blogging comepletly slipped my mind.
the people here are cheery, they usually greet me b4 i can greet them, thus dispensing the "racist" tag which so many people have told me about. but then again, i might not have met the racist people yet...there's bound to be some. somehow. surprisingly, the public transport here doesn't suck as well. Thery're almost very punctual and there are even timetables printed out for u. so in a way, they have no excuse not to adhere to the time tables. but then again, this is the CITY. not too sure about the suburbs though.oh. they also wash the streets in the CBD like EVERYDAY but cos its summer and waters scarce this season, they limited the frequency of washing i think.
things here are generally more expensive than back home though they may appear to be the same pricing due to PPP (product price parity. Bet you guys don;t know that). basically it's some economic term which means the price of something in country a would be almost the same as country b. but when u convert the currency over, the item bought from country b may be more expensive or cheaper than country b. oh whatever.
generally, a bottle of coke costs like..2-3 bucks here. a typical meal 7-8 bucks. the only cheap things here are probably juice and milk and meat (though i havent really seen how cheap they are yet). transport is quite ex as well but thank god i have a free loop service to school. but it's only up to 5.50pm only though ...any later that that i would have to take the payable public transport.
i'm still living in my dingy hotel and will move out only tomorrow. things should be more settled after that then.
special thanks go out to "aunty angela" , one of my aunts friends who invited me to her house for dinner on the first day i set foot on Oz. showed us around too but i doubt i'll be able to go out of the suburbs in future cos getting there is such a bitch without a car. brisbane's CBD is smaller than Shenton Way. But its definetly bigger then Sg.
oh well getting bored. update u guys again

where is the good in goodbye

just returned from a party thrown for me by the pnsd guys. Really touched by them as so many of them cancelled their prior appointments or rushed over (if they couldn't cancel) just to celebrate my belated birthday and bid me farewell before i head for Oz. Thanks guys.. for being there , for the cake, for the beer , for the food, for the company, for the laughter, for the tease , for the emo-ness, for the jacket which you guys kept on forcing me to put on (4 times! wtf) for the soft black hairy musht strap, for the samurai blade keychain, for the win. (tho' you guys tried to make me cry with the reiterations of "eh this is the bigggest turnout leh" , "eh see everyone cancelled their appointments to come here leh" ,"eh see got pweety girls came for this event leh (like real)", "eh this eh that")
this has by far been the most memorable birthday celebration for me (tho i didn't really like being the centre of attraction SHY LAH)

for the honourable mention :

thank you

kelvin
zavier
zavier's cousins (dunno their names sorry)
ddk
erina
fabian
michael
ruixiang
charlie
shengtao
Yu-Ann & Girlfriend
Jiawei
Pao shan & Friend (dunno your name sorry)
edwin
samuel
mingwen
jeremiah
weiyuan

for being there.

leaving

i just got back from a gathering celebrating my bday and 2 other's at brewerkz. met up with my suppossedly "best friend" in secondary school over there. its ironic that we give our friends titles like "best friend" or "best bud" only to realise that once time has passed, they are your "best" anymore. but then again meeting up with him was gd cos at least we still have shit to talk about so hurray, no weird silence. but then again, i was enjoying their company so much that the thought of not being able to meet them as easily as i can now when i'm in oz was enough to make me feel sian.
i'll be leaving in a day's time and i'm starting to feel the emo-ness of it all. i can see from my mum's eyes that she's kinda sad. which makes me feel sad too. but i know i have to do this; and i can only hope that she will understand and not be sad. looking at all the well-wishes from my relatives written on cards, i think i better not fuck up there.

sigh

23

yay i have hit level 23. total time played : 0318 hrs 00 min!
so exciting. its so ironic that we all look forward to birthdays but when the birthdays are really here we begin to whine about being old and shit. no exception for me though. i've stopped celebrating my birthdays since the age of 21 (but i still look forward to them) mainly because i've probably "grown up?" it's like the attitude of "oh alright it's my birthday...yay let me be happy today and tomorrow everything will be normal again" kinda sad..but then again, who ever throws a birthday celebration for himself? it's your friends that do it for you (not hinting here, but think about...makes lots of sense)

anyway i just got back from a long overdue meet up session with 2 of my poly classmates. it's kinda funny how we haven't seen each other for like 2 years (cos of ns) and then suddenly i log on to friendster and see a message from one of my them saying "eh got msn anot?" and it was dated dec 2005. wtf~! seems that i seldom check friendster....and then after that we suddenly agree to "meet up and see each other". It was damn fast and super effective lead time was like..1 day? wow. fastest friends award goes to them : chris & weirong. we had dinner at this place called "manhatten something"(a chip of fish and co) at PS. Food was alright except they said fish & co was better. (to me everything's ok cos i eat to live and not the other round). watched "fun with dick & jane" and later has this talk cock session at starbucks.

i had to leave to meet 2 of my ns buddies at holland v. more caffeine and Häagen-Dazs ice cream ensues b4 meeting another of my uber friends. she baked a cheesecake for me leh waaaah so touched! thx gal.

oh well. i'm feeling weirdly weird right now maybe...tho its my birthday tdy, the fact that i'll be leaving my friends and family for Oz on sun makes me kinda sad? and the fact of the hard ass process of finding permanent accomadation and making new friends just makes me want to ARGHHHhhhhH.

because eventually , everything is emotional.
sigh

reunion

just got back from the much needed reunion dinner with the family. well it was the same as every year but i guess it ended kinda fast. din really get to talk to everyone as we were spread across 2 table. so much for a "reunion" when it's not even a union of tables? wtf. after the dinner i went to emo chinatown for an emo time with my parents and uncle (and his family) oh well something inside me wanted to hang out with them. call it weird but i guess it's called "family ties" ? or maybe cos thinking about the fact that i'll not be seeing them for 10 months made me want to spend time with them now. humans. they only miss something when it's going to be taken (taken) away from them. but then again. you never miss what you never had. irony? oh well fuck it. life is an irony anyway.

guess what i found on urban dictionary on the entry for World Of Warcraft the game that i've been playing lately:

WOW

Acronym for World of Warcraft. World of Warcraft consumes every part of your life until eventually you have no friends because when they come over to visit you don't pay any attention to them and your "real" friends are the ones you talk to on vent while playing WOW, you lose your girlfriend because she no longer exists next to Warcraft, you start smoking in your room because your too involved in the game to go outside, lose all interest in going outside or having sex, you lose your job and eventually have to move home with you parents...I left my boyfriend because he left me for WOW.


true. true.

a different light

ivalice just hit 60 2 days ago


light so bright
i failed to see
the night


yup. Now what happens next after 60? i'm beginning to find it meaningless.

its been confirmed. i'll be leaving for the island on the 12th of february.
no more dark forces
no more fines
no more shit

i hope it'll be fun there looking at all the smiling faces in the various prospectuses should suggest so.
but obviously most happy things are lies.

for those who will miss me,
you ought to.
for those who didn't care
bless you
for those who don't know me
there will be more chances
for those over there
hope we have fun.

oh no not so soon?!

every week seems to have a theme
every day, and endless dream
but somehow perception loses its steam
locking me in life's ironic dream
grey skies still delight me
and i comfort in the night


maybe that's why i don't see the light.

2006

and so yesteryear's christmas has come and gone. it's a pity how so many people think christmas is just a one day affair. it's actually 12 to all you noobies out there.
2005 has passed too though i'm still unable to determine if it has een a shitty year for me anot. for one, it was the year of my freedom from NS. i'v done my time.and now its time to move on. but i do miss the folks back at the department. well, it basically means 2005 gave me more friends to hang out with. so probably , it ain't that bad. on a personal note, i feel that i'm slightly wiser (i ought to be since i'm one year older now) though i remain the same in certain areas : still scared of girls and still can't say no to people who ask me for help. gotta fix this in 2006 i hope. well anyway the future (like in all cliche phrases) scares me. i'll be heading to Oz soon and as tough as i may seem right now, i don't think i will be able to handle the shit overseas. but hey at least i'll try. for one thing, conveniences would definetly be taken away from me. and friends. damn i think i'll miss them despite having msn and all that jazz. tho there's WoW to entertain me, i hope it doesn't destroy me. however excited everyone may be around me, i feel contradicted. 2006 will be a year of adventure. but then again. not all adventures make happy memories.
why am i so morbid?
what will 2006 bring me?
happiness , strife, momories or dreams?
will there be love , or life of lonliness
inspiration or utter disappointment?
oh well,
happy new year folks! --> well at least this is an encouraging note.

christmas '05

ok so this years christmas was a lot more toned down than last year (i recall being totaly wasted last year) but more busy. tracing the events back to the 23rd, it was last minute christmas shopping @ orchard and then heading down to a friend's birthday party at clarke quay's tcc and then to watching narnia and on to woing till the wee hours of 24th dec. woke up at 5pm 24 dec so i guess my christmas eve was more or less wasted. anyways wowed again until like 6+ whereby i had to drop my parents off to a christmas party and went on to marina square to catch king kong. they should rename it king kok cos the scenes were pretty much lame and cmon, how can a chick every fall in love with an ape? anyways i got a call from my dad after than and damn i had to send thme home before rejoining the groups for supper -- or more likely, my dinner and then it was off to wowing till the wee hrs of christmas day. woke up 1pm on christmas day and went to a family party and then off to being show and tell object for my parents friend's party and now i may be heading t another gathering. maybe. damn i still remember needing to go to jb tml.