intruder.



today was an uneventful day at office
but things started to pick up after office hours cos
1. i managed to hack the xbox to enhance the playability and functions of my xbox
2. i managed to get my much needed rest at home
3. i killed a lizard which just irritated me by shitting right in front of me at the table when i was drinking water.

tml shall be spent at SPANS doing sai kang
why did i choose to do it then?

simple. cos i can earn hours

i'm a mercenary remember.

national shit...one year on

just got back from centro after a night of clubbing
sad to say their R&B mix wasn't customised to my liking
nevertheless i did have fun there
sluts still exist since the last time i went clubbing..even those who dress so skimpily to exhibit their well fed bodies

i'm on leave today
reasons being
1. i just got back from clubbing and it is 3.27am
2. i don't feel like working later
3. my annual leave of 14 days will be reset today leaving me with 21 days of leave in total + the hours
4. it has been one year since i was enlisted and given this pathetic life

i can't wait for Sep 28, 2004

obscure expression

when i went to work this morning
i expected some shit to happen after the long break from office
and how true was i indeed

it's either i am really stupid
or a certain someone isn't able to express himself well enough for me to understand what he wants

i'm tired of this life
of doing things for others as if i'm obliged to
of being used by so many people as if i'm a whore
of just being in my chair waiting for problems to come to me expecting to be solved

there must be some point in time when this shit has to end
and after analysing, reflecting and discussing it with myself,
Conscience and i decided that

it is the day i ORD.

plain morning

it's been awhile since i last did this another week's passed with little effort spent in exhausting it. met up witha  few old friends at a party last night and although i left pissed the company i had there broke it even. will be having an exam tomorrow and a pay rise after that.  

its funny how things have turned out this way
a little freaky though
to see all my friends ending up as family

sadness
finally brought myself to finish watching the remaining episodes of The O.C (from where i left off) sadly, season 1 ended off with a sad note with ryan (the main lead) going back to his shitty hometown justr because he's ex-girlfriend whom he had sex with became pregnant and he thought that the baby was his. sadness..could have used a raincoat or something right?! neway, it was evident that the people of the show really wanted to mess things up from the consistant pummelling of  bad events happenning to the cohens. the sadness. but anyway it's just a tv show
 
right now i have so many movies/anime that can last me a lifetime. and the last thing i would want t do is be distracted...

overloaded overjoyed

it's been 2 days since i last saw the office. somehow the feeling of returning to office later sickens me especially when i have to wait upon director to send him around. wtf.

nevertheless those 2 days away from the office managed to allow me to cool of from office/ns angst.

went to jb on wednesday morning with mohaideen and syl and bought loads of coasters. (if you don't know what those are just remain ignorant). was damn sad at the end of the day as time flew so irritatingly fast when i was over there. watched king arthur with amias and sylvia too later that night. haven't been watching MN movies for a damn long time too.

yesterday was spent clearing movies and animes as i felt that my 140gb computer was running out of disk space due to the continuous build up of anime. i must say eternal sunshine of the spotless mind messed with my mind abit though..but still it was l33t.

tired and lazy to type will continue another day

changi

just got back home after picking up a friend from the airport. somehow, there was this sense of yearning to jet away when i stepped foot into the terminal.
it was then that i decided. i have to get away after my sergeant conversion course.

what great timing it started raining just 5 minutes after i stepped back into my room
tired tired tired off to bed now

reboot.



just got back from a 2D1N chalet at loyang. though things did not turn out the way i saw them to be i still managed to stop and rethink about the issues which have been making me so cynical and morbid. (see previous post(s) ) anyway, it's back to the damned office for me tomorrow although i'll be going out soon after signing in for some stupid briefing which will affect my pay in future.

to tired to blog shall continue tomorrow

accidently in love



woke up this morning cos i had to return to the office to pick up my uniform
why? cos my damn mc covers me until today and i have bloody prt tomorrow
not that i'm lazy...it's just that i don't really enjoy the silence in the frc as my prt mates are't really chatty....
brushed my bleeding mouth took a shower
decked myself and gunned the engine

horned a few taxi drivers along the way not forgetting the indecisive lady-drivers and over cautious P-Plate kids. oh screwed a few mercs drivers who were road hogging too
reached office hung aruond got my shit and zipped back home

didn't really feel like going out after that so i returned the keys to dad and started watching anime and The O.C again..
beginning to feel sad cos i'm almost finishing the first season and anna has apparently left the screen for a few episodes. damn

she's so cute..but unreachable
i think i've fallen accidently in love with her

to prolong my happiness i decided not to watch The O.C for 2 hours and decided to cut my fur since there's this stupid D.C visit on monday. not that i'm afraid of him (it's just a goddam rank on his shoulders..he's still human) but i just don't want any trouble for the long hair (Think black/fat/fucked up superiors saying "your hair is very long u noe blah blah") it's just not worth it....but then again there's no worth in NS anyway.

Vindicated.
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away

anna

to be waking up feeling sad and with tears in my eyes
is almost weird.
"..this is everyone's misfortune" were her words

now who the hell was she?

WHAT THE FUCK !?

greece just beat the czech rep. to the finals
JUST
WHAT IN THE FUCKING HELL

they made me wake up
gave me false hopes
and brought the rain.

i will never look at a skoda car again.

sweet.

if words could express

how awfully sweet

The O.C

is


my mouth would


have


bled to death

i'm still bleeding!?

wtf. woke up this morning to find my pillow full of blood
WTF?!?!
is this normal? or could it be the nachos/kfc chicken/ice cream/twisties which i ate yesterday?
hmm.....

now i know why girls get so pissed once a month
i myself hate my mouth being full of blood what more about them
seesh.

High class or High Crass?

in the midst of my personal "retreat" i have started watching the american drama series titled "The O.C"

For people who don't know what O.C stand for its "Orange County"
The series is about a high-class society of people living in this residential estate called orange county (or something like that) since i see the same group of high-class people living their so called high-class life, wearing the same high-class togs and whatever things high-class you can think of.
Predictably, hidden behind them are adultery, lies, fraud and whatever things un-high-class so it's pretty interesting to see how and what goes on in their lives.
Show's not bad with the main lead actress as a big big piece of yummy eye candy with similar dissappointing characteristics in the real world (having an ugly boyfriend and messed up parents and the likes.she's alright btw) not forgetting the many un-occassional instances of faux pas when the high class people just embarrass the hell out of themselves when they act totally immature and stuff.

a drama ? or the bare facts?
i'd choose the bare facts. many "high class" people are not what they seem. i have an aunt who's like that and i never fail to embarrass her when she brags about her high but low class of living.

branded stuff are for people who have low self esteem and need the brand name to give them the added confidence. credit cards? either for light travellers who do not like stuffing wads of money notes or for "act tough" people who enjoy oweing credit card companies money. for those who disagree with me, BITE ME. you're all gonna die one day and wealth will definetly not be a measure of your existence's worth.

The O.C is a cool show btw. catch it if you can. for the morals and the eye candy

blood and enamel




had my lower left wisdom and top left tooth extracted today. weird experience i must say
here were the procedures:

was made to wear spastic shower cap, shoe caps and robes in order to make me look as if i was going to give birth

was later injected with this bittersweet cough-syrup like substance which make me curse and swear cos of the piercing pain (4x) believe me , even with a numbed mouth you still can swear.

anyways the dentist tried to kill me by opening my mouth super wide and using all his strength to extract my top left tooth but in the end, i din even feel the absence of my teeth even after he had already taken them out. last minutes of surgery :

me : nurse, can i spit?
nurse: nono you can swallow
me: but i want to spit...this taste in my mouth is weird
nurse : ok la... nah (spreads out serviettes for me to spit)

i spat.
cool bloody oozy blood

i hate the taste of iron.

but i love the colour of blood.

YUM YUM!

5 days of mc coming right up!

dizzy

it's one of those days when i suddenly go panaroid and start thinking of things so spastic beyound imagination. first it started with the weird dreams in the afternoon and now it's this whole issue about being what i am today
wtf.

i'm going to have my wisdom tooth surgery tomorrow. hopefully everything will go well and the minimal amout of pain experienced. but then again, even in pain we can sleep.

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

concussed



went home at about 1330 hrs today and went to sleep got the shock of my life when i found myself awake at 1845 hrs and cursed myself for wasting the day oh well guessed since i can't sleep i'd crap a bit here for the record my friend was telling me about this girl he so called met on friendster which led me to reconfirm my doubt the looks do matter altough THEY say that THEY do not but then again who they hell are the THEY when we usually say THEY its just like tradition i especially like the one about not eating your plate clean saying that your future husband wife will ahve pimples on their face etc when asked about who said it they will always say your grandmother and when you asked your grandmother she will say her grandmother and so on

is this it?

are we suppossed to follow tradition blindly without seeking the truth?

many things in life are not what it is said to be
though how pleasant and comforting words may be
hard cold reality will always hit you in teh face when you least expect it.

the irony of it all
in deeper darkness we will fall

'the truth will set you free'
indeed it is true.

anyway about the pic it was taken when i was taking a walk around my office area last night. found it really funny and decided to snap it

good morning sunshine

just woke up at around 8am
walked over to the office toilet and aimed some hot water at my head

yesh i did say office toilet.

i had spent the night in office. haha.

looking back it was a surreal feeling, machiam like hotel like that.

we had just completed our function and some of my colleagues suggested staying over to watch soccer in office. there was quite a number of people initially but slowly due to dobts about being caught and stuff only 3 were left. me and two others.

we did not watch soccer. we just idled the time away.

looking back, i could have lost quite a bit of money too if i did bet on this morning's game between greece and france. thank God i wasn't able to find a singapore pools outlet last night. (in the first place i actually wasn't suppossed to be betting)

oh well, spending the night in office was quite and emo experience. the silence which filled the walls last night....

was heavenly.

life just got crazier




went to work today expecting everything to be same and mundane but it did not turn out to be. i was informed that i was part of the team to revamp the stupid dept's website with the really long deadline of 3 months from today. sho clever of the higher ups.

to add to the burden, some idiot dragged me into this security campaign shit which required us to design posters on security--> wtf was that suppossed to mean?! crazy

as if i wasn't having enough fun, i'm also involved in the redesigning of the PNS ezlink cards--> i don't mind this cos this IS after all part of my JOB SCOPE

dammit dammit dammit

oh yeah.. bought a new fish tank and placed it on my desk. added 2 snakeheads into it to accompany me the rest of my NS-Life. hopefully they will ORD earlier than me so i won't have to bring them home when i ORD. heheh

STOP PISSING ME

somethins's pissing me off.
but i don't know what it is.
fug.