f*ck you

etched in my heart
a nondescript scar
those painful words spurn my anger
it takes one wrong move
before we lose it all

images of you images of me
images of everything it could ever be
what's life without challenges ?

it is life without you.

feel my pain, anima

the interesting part of life is its gradual degradation
often caused by people less capable, less deserving,
less experienced,less deserving and less intellectual then you.
the word apathy is becoming my middle name.

ennui

with the sounds of melancholic music playing in the background
complemented by all issues of confusion and strife in my mind
the scene was perfect
i can almost cry

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so many CHOICES
1 big DECISION
1 significant OUTCOME
so little time

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product of boredom





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whatever it takes

what does it take to make one happy?

perfect

cos' we lost it all
nothing lasts forever
sorry , i can't be
perfect
now it's just too late
and we can't go back
i'm sorry, i cant be
perfect

she's gone

she's gone....probably one of the closest gal-buddy i have has gone away to australia and will only be back in arnd dec.

meanwhile to recap on the days since the last post:

yes i had a really shitty bday cos i was refused leave for the stupid retreat
and yes i had fun too but the shitty feeling overwhelmed the fun part of my bday
the stupid retreat turned out alright with me not being screwed as otherwise thought so
v-day continued to be a farce to me and i did not go out with my gf cos i had the flu
yay i still have the flu maybe tml or tue take mc hahaha

but she's still gone...

surprise surprise

surprisingly i did not have a bad day at all though i was forced to drink a large can of barons shit brew by aloysius and kar kiat and almost made a fool out of myself at spans trying to not let them smell my stench. was really surprised that pple in the office would remember my bday judging from the amount of time i just got to know them.

let's just hope i don't get screwed by mr fat tomorrow at the retreat.

happy ? b'day to me

hah the irony of it all
my icq was flooded with happy bday wishes at teh strike of 12 this morning
and i was refused leave for tomorrow all because of one goddamed retreat which i was to be involved with the co-ordination only.


more rantings to come tlater today.

lenne

endless joy, endless sorrow
endless winds of tomorrow
endless laughter, silent cries
endless hues of the skies
endless tension sleepless nights
cowering darkness, northern lights
endless sadness endless grief
endless tears that i weep

my compass has been broken
i seem to have lost my way

who's lenne?!
why am i so angry
i think i shall go to bed right now

breakout

i'm slowly going under
the days seem long but yet so short
i seem so free yet so busy
in my endless pursuit of learning
can you hear me God?

oblivion

the christmas holiday is gone
the new year holiday is gone
the chinese new year holiday is gone
the hari raya haji holiday is gone
what's left is 2 months of pure shit before the next holiday greets me.

somehow a part of me wants to scream out loud for all the shit i am going through right now
on the outside everything looks fine
but there's actually a great big mess inside of me

...........

sometimes things don't always go the way we want them to be.
it's the minor things that fuck us up.

Happy CNY .

happy CNY guys
wtf am i doing up at 5am?

screwed over .

hey guys and girls it's time to bitch again
tdy's the worst day of my life in 2004 so far i got screwed over twice at the office cos of some really really small shit ....really unbelieveble man there are still people out there who can't differentiate a cd-writer from a cd-r disc oh wth. anyway i was so pissed i decided to take my gary fisher out for spin. and spin it did. i returned home with a punctured tyre apparently acquired after negotiating a sudden drift in the park not forgetting i hit a small kid who was on the cycling track too haha! that really made my day man who told him to walk on a cycling track. argghhhh screw it. it's a new day tdy and i won't let it bring me down.

my life needs a re-org! .

with the new year rolling in and the new change of life at the office my life definetly needs a reorg. what would my after office hours life be like? passive or active? fun-packed or dull? should i take up a part time degree/course? can i cope? all these shit have been running through my mind ever since the first few days of the New Year has passed....i think i'm in for a jolly good ride

farewell 2003 .

the year is coming to an end
a rather good year tough things strarted to screw up towards the end
i acquired a screwed up computer and a messed up xbox which created an impression that the xbox is no better than a calculator
other than that thigns have been alright
my love life is still stagnant ...maybe she will come into my life next year?
things are hard to predict though
anyway screw 2003 be it good or bad
it's time to bring on 2004.

bring it on.

limbo.

as i wait in mindless stupor
the com is drawing lines of lore
i've finally gotten my computer
set it up and gunned it hilther
but what went wrong i do not know
which left me wondering here in limbo

office space

the droning of the air conditioner
fills me in dreamy state
as i lay in the easy chair of my cubicle
i'm a loner, a vagrant, shifting thorough the sands of time
the mere act of pretence being my guide
and protector of my hide

i feel so bored
i think i shall go and shit right now