fug

i was just informed that my passing out parade date would be pushed back by one week. which would mean i would most probably pop on the 10th of dec instead of 2 dec provided i dopn't screw up anything. fug. btw happy deepavali guys public holidays are a godsend for ns men

survive this week

with a lot of green phelgm and a small possibility of obtaining the flu again i have set myself a simple but hard target : to survive this week without getting sick. simple cos its only 6 days....hard cos i have sentry duty yet again thios wednesday which is a 24 hr thing and you know how much your body heats up when u have irregular sleeping hours.....survive this week...cos next week is a holiday week

7 more weeks to go

it's good to know that the number of weeks that i have left have gone down to 7. Yes i have 7 more weeks to POP. Life isn't hard at PA. Just irritating. I guess having spent 13 weeks at PA alone by myself has made me stronger in the areas of tolerance of nonsense, to be able to sleep anywhere in almost any position as well as to be more alert so as to prevent my ass from getting into trouble.

i expect the next few weeks to be mentally and physically challenging as i still have about 4-5 more tests to undergo. but hey 7 more weeks should be bearable. the only bad thing at the moment happenning to me now is that i have this feeling that i am falling sick again. please don't.

sick

this is my 2nd day of mc and in about an hr's time i would be heading back to camp
the only problem that i am facing now is that i am still running a temperature of 38 deg. my best bet is that i would have a relapse tonight after spending the night in my bunk
i hate the flu
y must such shit happen during such important times of training

boring

the vicious cycle continues as i go about the day packing my bag in preparation of going back to camp tonight. the govt. currently owns my life...at least for the next 2.5 years. i don't remember selling/loaning it away to it though...

14 weeks to go (90 days)

the 111th intake batch just passed out yesterday.
leaving the 112th intake squads and a few regular squad in the academy
suppossedly our POP would be a grander one than yesterday's which was washed away in rain
everything's fine so far except for the usual suspects
should be back by friday if everything goes well.

17 weeks to go

going back in tonight. this week would be an ass week cos i will only be going home on sunday morning and going back on sunday night. so much for the weekend break.....

in and out again

didn't really have time to bother abt this blog until when i am finally settled with all the shit to bring into camp tonight. bought a pack of uncle tobys muesli bars which apparantly have no "halal" symbol on it and so was contemplating whether to bring it in anot cos a rule of PA states that we can't bring pork in but pork also meant any other shit made from a pig. so shall it be then just hope no one visits me at night. going back to camp soon ----> the boredom. still alittle bit unsure of how to walk in but hopefully i will be able to cross the bridge when i get to it. right now time is such an ass. everything i'm donig right now is hyper i just hope i dun burn out. farewell to my home. farewell to my life

goodbye to my home. goodbye tomy life

this is the first time i have ever waken up at such an early hour ever since my holidays started in mid april. it shall however also be the first day i enter into the police academy. many thoughts fill my ever saturated mind right now as i try to construct this entry. for a start i would not be returning home until the 8th of august.

many things await me at pa. new friends, opportunities as well as challenges. the first hurdle would however be figuring out where to go once i reach that dreaded place. all i know is that the days of waking up at 3pm everyday are gone...well at least for 20 weeks. i can never roam the land as freely as i used to be.

many thanks be to those who supported me just before i enter pa. you will always be remembered as the few good friends who stood by me. for now i wish you well.

goodbye to my home.
goodbye to my life.

the last day of freedom

today is my last day of freedom before i begin my 20-week ns prep training into oblivion
somehow somewhere inside of me wants to go all out into having a full fledged day of fun by completing whatever things i had always wanted to do before ns. however, another part of me just wants to sit in my set apart space at home dwelling in solace getting prepared for the big day tomorrow because there's no escaping the day tomorrow. the former would just be running away from it. in my view ns would be fun though its the initial making of friends that would be hard oh well. 21 hours left.

my friends have been abducted

woke up this morning to find that my icq had 5 regular online names instead of 10.
well done. 4 of my friends have been abducted and 1 has gone to work

slowly my world is crumbing

farewell to carpe diem

counting the remaining days i have left to ns jail
there aren't many. only 7 days
i do recall the times when i was just waking up at this shameful hour just getting ready for school
or just waking up at hours later than this just to skip school
all these have now passed and are merely just a record in my memory
gone are the days of endless reverie and nights of muse

freedom was just a memory

why do i feel so sad

yesterday was a day of madness
2 rabbit cages, 3 habitrail space stations, 3 metal hamster cages and 7 medium sized pet habitat containers were all crammed into my dad's car to be cleared off at a number of pet shops around the island.
in the end almost everything was cleared off except for 2 breeding pairs of rodents and a few other critters. crazy day i must say
anyway, although we managed to pack the animals into the car, sell them off, wash the cages etc, have a so-so dinner and met up with old friends; (we as in me and satan child) i somehow feel a prescence of despair in me. as if something was missing. something which i always wanted to do, could do but have not done it. what a fucked up feeling right
damn if only i knew what was missing. probably i wouldn't be blogging right now.

suikoden

i just completed suikoden in less than 2 weeks
a week earlier then what my bet with a friend stated

the facts :

operation: complete suikoden 3 in 14 days
status : completed
date of completion 13th july 2003 0600 hrs
total airtime 72 hrs 39 secs

technically ended at 0430 hrs

6 characters

3 main : chris, hugo, geddoe
1 shithead : thomas
1 nonsense : koroku (dog)
1 bonus if you collected 108 stars : luc but basically it just wastes 1.5 hrs

death again

blogger is seriously screwed
my previous entries failed to be published

so shall it be whatsoever it 's free anyway
and free stuff usually satisfies the basic needs of the client

anyway yesterday another death was reported
yes my other rare snakehead died
not because of parasites
but extreme wounds inflicted by a low-life luohan
believe me i will avenge its death

tragedy

the car was a total wreck when we arrived at the scene of the accident
glass and firebreglass debris from both cars could be clearly seen at the surrounding
areas on the road where the two cars collided.
the driver in the other car had already been taken to hospital.
no wonder they said speeding was the no. 1 road killer

idiots should be no. 2 cos no matter how safe you are
there will always be someone to fuck you up.

death

i lost one of my rare snakeheads this morning to a fucking parasite
well at least i know ocean free products are useless
all i can do right now is look for a replacement to accompany the other one that's left
fuck parasites
fuck ocean free

nice

my exam results were out early this morning. was kinda surprised when i got an A for my fyp as my supervisor was quite demanding of my project and often said i could do better than the current standard. I guess he was steering me thru the direction of an a grade. thanx mr supervisor although i know you will never read this entry. well i guess i can really go all out tohave fun b4 i go for stupid ns now. hopefully i don't die b4 i go in

oh really

i was bored (as always) and stumbled uppon this trash :


Sunset - You are the spark of inspiration, the fuel
of the imagination, and the essence of
destruction. You are one of intense emotion
and passion, a creator and a destroyer.


When are you?
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nice.

the words i feel

I've been watching you awhile
Since you walked into my life
Monday morning, when first I heard you speak to me
I was too shy to let you know
Much too scared to let my feelings show
But you shielded me and that was the beginning

Now at last we can talk
In another way
And though I try, I love you,
Is just so hard to say
If I only could be strong
And say the words I feel

My bleeding heart begins to race
When I turn to see your face
I remember that sweet dream
Which you told to me
I wanted just to be with you
So we could make the dream come true
And you smiled at me and that was the beginning

Now at last we can talk
In another way
And though I try, I love you,
Is just so hard to say
If I only could be strong
And say the words I feel

Tell me what you're thinking of
Tell me if you love me not
I have so much I long to ask you
But now the chance has gone
When your picture fades each day
In my heart the memory stays
Though we rant, you're always smiling
And I will hold it long