something isn't right here

somehow something isn't right somewhere
a heavy sense of foreboding seems to be lingering around me

saddy

saddy kept on jumping today
hey endless clamour emancipating my rage as i type
saddy is jumping right now just what is wrong with her
i guess she too senses the mental bondage that i am in

crap entry 1

this was written by my friend and together with him we shall spin the tale of the century

Karkait bought toto last week and striked $1million
So he bought a cool blue skyline and drove it to orchard. Karkiat looking as handsome as ever drew the attention of the chiobu.this chiobu drives a porsche boxster and thought she can outrun my skyline. So so ... she gave me that look )-Tsk low class jap car-( and ramp her engine.... broom broom BBROOM... I gave her a allan toh look and broom broom also. So the last mat skater cheong past the traffic light(the one right ouside the conical borders building and there goes.... She was fast!! real fast.. .think she floor. Ha! but i mod my skyline engine earlier... have changed it to the prototype proton wadja babi engine earlier at johor and pumped my tyres with nooze... the mats told me they make ur car go faster... And Vrrroroooommm... My speedo meter reached a shocking 70 km/h ... nv have i pushed this beast so far. Well well... girls been girls will nv catch up. So i lead her all the way to east coast carpark K ... she tailing behind me... hot on my twin exhaust. tskk..drove to a dead end and she got out of the boxster! ... Its Xiaxue!!! my idol... She took off the bun on the hair and ..............

I woke up.... the traffic light just turned green... Vroomm.... my fateful L300.. cruising my way through geylang serai
to buy the famous ketupat which yummy king so fervently advertised saying that whoever eats it would strike toto./4d
apparently it doesn't work cos i still see so many puny mortals queuing up at singapore pools and turf club outlets dotting the island marking their bets on high class hell money. this is high class hell money cos you don't have to burn it to get it to hell you just mark it and feed it through the high tech machine and your money would go straight to hell...talk about the advancements of technology nowadays.

i arrived at the stall.. wet with perspiration as my cool L300's air-conditioning was spoilt. i placed my order for the ketupat but the aunty was too busy to even look at me. Feeling rejected i went to eat macdonalds instead. Over at macdonalds i decided that i needed to pee so i went into the toilet and saw this old uncle peeing at the urinal . the problem is he was peeing through his pants and being PGO and all that i asked him "uncle...y are you peeing in your pants? " the uncle looked at me witht he classic lao ren chi dai zheng look and said he had struck toto 1 million and suddenly he swung around to face me.. well done..now i ahve his pee on my legs. i threatened to beat him up by grabbing him with the Undertaker stance in WWE and out of fear he said " dun send me to the old folk's home i got money money i give u money!" and began stuffing SGD notes by the wads into my pocket. I humble accepted the moneyt and walked out of macdonalds, pee-stained feet and all to the bank.

totalling up the money at the bank, i realised that the senile ah pek had given me $400,000k in total..what a mad shit...and so i decided to get a car for myself since the l300 was torturing me. I went to the net and bought the toyata silly car (celica) for 50k on yahoo! auctions.
the car was driven to me by the afternoon by a cool ahbeng which had "Jin Zhong Bao Guo" tatooed on his back..and lots of coloursful cartoon characters on his body. He accepted the money and i began speeding off in my secondly-new celica.

after awhile i decided that singapore was boring and so i went across the bridge to the island nearer to hell and decided to test the top speed of the car there. I started off at the NS highway and managed to bring it up to 220km/h. i tell u it's like flying life seems to flash past u as all the slowmos just disappear from your rear view mirror as if they were vapourised. soon.. i got bored and settled down at the roadside sarabat stall and ordered teh tarik from the the friendly mat brudder over there. as i was about to leave for temasek a local policeman there walked up to me and said that i was caught speeding on my way here..feeling pissed by his evil aura i just paid him the price along with the additional 100 bucks for him to clear the roads for my entourage back home.

i arrived home safetly at 10pm just in time to see lana lang in smallville. it has been a cool to hate day.









what a load of crap.

my life got cold

the annual bad luck streak has come and gone again
i guess everyone gets it
it a period of time (usually a day / week) of shitty things happenning to you for no goddamn reason
mine started last tuesday when i went back to malaysia for some pig herding
apparently it started off when one of my friends was late (can't blame him yeah it's the evil aura)
due to a stomachache which led me to speeding down to malaysia
afterwhich everything was pretty alright and i was getting ready to exploit the short period of carpe diem with my half day leave when suddenly another colleague of mine insisted that i go back to office and work instead of taking leave.
i was like ..fuck. cos i already brought the car out and would incur high parking fees if i parked for the remaining day at chink land. moreover i won't be in time if i left the car at home and took the world-crass public transport system which would get me to work. i settled for parking at sgh though, after that the evil aura continues to spread as i slowly realise that work wasn't THAT urgent and i have gotten a $30 un-redeemable voucher from URA for a parking offence - courtesy of the friendly hoodie who's probably making satay right now. anyways...to top it off i scrapped daddy dearest's fron skirt on a curb which going to watch a movie. You may think wow...that's quite a load of shit i've been through juging fromt eh no. of lines of bitching here but that's not all. the next day i got a free para-counselling session from good 'ol banshee next-door just because i did not do the simple task of drawing paper for her. wtf if it was simple can't she do it herself. anyway to end that highly unpleasant session i just took to blame and just regarded that her brain's iq and eq was probably the no. of her shoesize and shrugged it off. wednesday thru friday were uneventful when saturday brought the shitty news that the freshwater barracuda that i so long wanted ot get was bough up by a rich sod. (apparently he bought the whole tank of 10+ barracudas at $40 each) i have come to a conclusion that rich people are damn stupid..take the merc and bm drivers who drive so slowly even a chinaman riding his golden wheel bicycle can over take them. not to digress i cursed and swore when my wolf fish died suddenly on sunday. piece of shit it did not deserve a water burial and so i tossed it out the window for the friendly magpie to have it. tdy's pretty ok and since it'll be 1 hr 52 mins to tuesday --exactly a week after i visited malaysia..the curse of the lesser mortals should have died off.

*this entry wasn't made to inform/impress/entice/undermine anyone of my past week. it is just to serve the purpose as a record for the shittier times in my life*

life's a joke

just when i thought my office life would be pretty slack
i was proven wrong and bombarded with lastminute ad hoc work
the one thing that pissed me off the most was that some of the work was not within my jurisdiction
and even though the other part of work beloged to me
what was actually a simple practice of maintaining files and paperwork was made
long and tidious by a mat
why?
some damn thing always happens thay say

what's life without challenges again i ask?

it is life without you.

i just realised NS has changed me into another person.
one thing's for sure
i'm not going to be all sugar and spice and everything nice anymore.

f*ck you

etched in my heart
a nondescript scar
those painful words spurn my anger
it takes one wrong move
before we lose it all

images of you images of me
images of everything it could ever be
what's life without challenges ?

it is life without you.

feel my pain, anima

the interesting part of life is its gradual degradation
often caused by people less capable, less deserving,
less experienced,less deserving and less intellectual then you.
the word apathy is becoming my middle name.

ennui

with the sounds of melancholic music playing in the background
complemented by all issues of confusion and strife in my mind
the scene was perfect
i can almost cry

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so many CHOICES
1 big DECISION
1 significant OUTCOME
so little time

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product of boredom





Which Royalty Are You? Find out! By Nishi.

whatever it takes

what does it take to make one happy?

perfect

cos' we lost it all
nothing lasts forever
sorry , i can't be
perfect
now it's just too late
and we can't go back
i'm sorry, i cant be
perfect

she's gone

she's gone....probably one of the closest gal-buddy i have has gone away to australia and will only be back in arnd dec.

meanwhile to recap on the days since the last post:

yes i had a really shitty bday cos i was refused leave for the stupid retreat
and yes i had fun too but the shitty feeling overwhelmed the fun part of my bday
the stupid retreat turned out alright with me not being screwed as otherwise thought so
v-day continued to be a farce to me and i did not go out with my gf cos i had the flu
yay i still have the flu maybe tml or tue take mc hahaha

but she's still gone...

surprise surprise

surprisingly i did not have a bad day at all though i was forced to drink a large can of barons shit brew by aloysius and kar kiat and almost made a fool out of myself at spans trying to not let them smell my stench. was really surprised that pple in the office would remember my bday judging from the amount of time i just got to know them.

let's just hope i don't get screwed by mr fat tomorrow at the retreat.

happy ? b'day to me

hah the irony of it all
my icq was flooded with happy bday wishes at teh strike of 12 this morning
and i was refused leave for tomorrow all because of one goddamed retreat which i was to be involved with the co-ordination only.


more rantings to come tlater today.

lenne

endless joy, endless sorrow
endless winds of tomorrow
endless laughter, silent cries
endless hues of the skies
endless tension sleepless nights
cowering darkness, northern lights
endless sadness endless grief
endless tears that i weep

my compass has been broken
i seem to have lost my way

who's lenne?!
why am i so angry
i think i shall go to bed right now

breakout

i'm slowly going under
the days seem long but yet so short
i seem so free yet so busy
in my endless pursuit of learning
can you hear me God?

oblivion

the christmas holiday is gone
the new year holiday is gone
the chinese new year holiday is gone
the hari raya haji holiday is gone
what's left is 2 months of pure shit before the next holiday greets me.

somehow a part of me wants to scream out loud for all the shit i am going through right now
on the outside everything looks fine
but there's actually a great big mess inside of me

...........

sometimes things don't always go the way we want them to be.
it's the minor things that fuck us up.

Happy CNY .

happy CNY guys
wtf am i doing up at 5am?