famous last words

she thought everything was ok
when she turned and walked away
"i'll be fine" was the stereotyped consolation which she received
but in reality
he was not

"it's ok, it's alright, i'm for anything"
blared his famous words everytime
they needed to be known to her

she continued day after day
and he time after time
knowing that true love would allow
for such as these

his body lay cold
invisibly shivering
the life in it has lost meaning
bloodstains and valium accompanied it
not forgetting the dame it so much befit

"it's ok, it's alright, i'm for anything"
the words a-ringing in her ears
negligence is accompanied by a heavy price
even men will be reduced to mice

she thought everything was ok
when she turned towards and walk away
"i'll be fine" was the stereotyped consolation which she received
but in reality
he was not

throbbing pain

had a nip by a shrew
light years before morning dew
mindless people walk me by
oblivious to my silent cry

evil begets evil in this time of day
benovelance is considered hay
why does pain and suffering exist
when the slashing and killing still persists

heartless minds and mindless hearts
always fail to make me start
sin is a common sight to me
my pious joy it tries to rob

in my midst of pain and
hour of disdain
the throbbing pain
it grants me solace

somehow or other
something clicked.

beautiful day

greetings.
i found out today that i did not scrape the paint of the car which i thought i did yesterday
that's a relief.
work sucks but the fact that the world cup begins today is enough relief to empty the streets of town

a bowl of noodles

it's a contradictory day today
my project for attachment is almost done except for more finetuning ---good
i got back my examination results..they weren't too bad----good
i hit a car during parking.---bad
my friend got dismissed from np--bad

funny how often we want the happy times to last while they still are
funny how it doesn't seem that way
funny how one thing can bring u so much joy
only to lead to another sorry
funny how when times are bad we manage to pull through by biting our lips
only to become complacent when we've reached utopia
funny how friends seem so dear to you
that they fall due to your negligence
funny how we can feign innocence
only to experience silent grief in our hearts
funny how nice guys finish last
while the bad guys never die
funny how i can type this out
when my mind is at a total loss

a possible new toy?

i have a dream pda....it's not the latest but hopefully i'll be able to get it by the end of my vtp

unnecessary hype

i just created a webpage for myself today
finally after so many days,months of saying "i will get my page done" to myself has been fulfilled
somehow or other i had to do it not because i have to...but i need to
imagine working mon-sat 8.30-5.30 everyday?!!?
it's not the working hours..well..not entirely BUT what do i get at the end of the month?
pay and...? face the facts..your holidays are actualky wasted on working
anyway, i also completed ff9 today -- > that's somehting to brag about to those people only concerned with vtp and wrk haha!
kk crapping too much already...my boss will be out the whole week this week
WOOHOOO!

trash

worlds apart

I am the only one to blame for this
Somehow it all adds up the same
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I flew too high and like Icarus I collide
With a world I try so hard to leave behind
To rid myself of all but love
to give and die

To turn away and not become
Another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves
more deeply than the oceans,
more abundant than the tears
Of a world embracing every heartache

Can I be the one to sacrifice
Or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow

To love you - take my worlds apart
To need you - I am on my knees
To love you - take my worlds apart
To need you - broken on my knees

All said and done I stand alone
Amongst remains of a life I should not own
It takes all I am to believe
In the mercy that covers me

Did you really have to die for me?
All I am for all you are
Cause what I need and what I believe are worlds
apart

And I pray...

To love you- take my worlds apart
To need you- I am on my knees
To love you- take my worlds apart
To need you- broken on my knees

I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
and wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
More and more I need you now,
I owe you more each passing hour
the battle between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain
and wash the feet and cleanse my pride
take the selfish, take the weak,
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
the sin-soaked heart and make it yours
take my world all apart
take it now, take it now
and serve the ones that I despise
speak the words I can't deny
watch the world I used to love
fall to dust and thrown away
I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
so wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
so steal my heart and take the pain
take the selfish, take the weak
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
take my worlds apart, take my worlds apart
I pray, I pray, I pray
take my worlds apart

dunnoth wat day of attachment
i feel damn sleepy
help

5th day of attachment
i still have to work on saturdays..not that i ahve to but want to.
the project's a rather small scale one..but being completely new to servlets and JSP,
it has become a rather big one (to me at least)
i've got nothing to do again...well at the moment
but maybe i'll start thinking about the web interface in about 1/2 hr's time from now..

2nd day of attachment ....it's kinda boring since i'm stuck at the project because i need approval from my superior
my stomach feels queasy..think i'm going to bomb afghanistan later
it's cold over here and rainy too...drat.

this is a stupid message
don't bother to read it
i just got home today
after doing some happenning stuff like
eating a steamboat buffet and then drinking some milky solvent
and then biking the world
this message has been posted because i haven't been posting messages here
byebyeyeyee

where is everyone
sleeping or mugging
why am i alone on icq
what am i doing
tomorrow is my 2nd last paper
what am i doing here
how am i going to survive it
i am a goner
i do not disagree with that statement

woke up this morning to see the messed up sunny sky
ss was a disaster
i hope isdt wun be
but from the looks of it...i'm afraid it'll be

i'm messed up
my exams are in 2 days time and i am still not worried
WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME

just witnessed a flying chopping board in the food centre tonight
cool to hate
2 police patrol cars and an ambulance came
i think the show should be rated nc-16

it's a freaking hot day
and i am bored

grand retour was a success
i finally got expelled from bbdc
and i finally got that f**king piece of ic sized paper

here i stand alone
with this weight upon my heart
and it's screwing my stomach up
the day i've been waiting for is here
probably one of the biggest days of a teenager
55 days ago i failed my tp
and 55 days later i am attempting it for teh second time
i really hope that i would pass
if not it would really suck
not cos of the failure
not cos of the money
but more for the waiting period

there will only be 2 types of me
the me in benovelance
the me in malovelance
all to be decided in 11 hours to come
....
Grand Retour....is commencing.

i hate pcom
my presentation is tomorrow and there are a thousand caterpillars making cocoons in my stomach already
by daybreak they'll eat me up from inside
there's still wdd to worry about
and Grand Retour on friday to worry about too
help.

it is a good day to die.